We just got back from vacation. It was my first real vacation since my wedding. We've gone away for a weekend here and there but not a real vacation for years! My best friend got married at the Grand Canyon. Now let me preface this with while the Grand Canyon is supposed to be amazing and all it wasn't at the top of my list of places to see. I would rather go some where tropical, with a beach or very cool mountains (maybe east or west coast)
So because I love my best friend so much I decided to go where ever she wanted to get married. And she chose the Grand Canyon. So we rented a house in Flagstaff. The house was amazing, while the decor needed a bit of updating the layout was great! There were 8 of us staying there. We all got our own rooms and gave us a break from each of us if we needed it. Everyone knew the bride and groom but didn't know hardly anyone else. Overall I think there were 18 of us out there.
I got to meet and hang out with some of the most amazing people. We had an absolute blast. We spent the day in Sedona, just walking around and exploring. It was great! Jason and I went on a jeep 4x4 tour and learned a ton about the area. It was a lot of fun.
The day of the wedding was great. The girls got their hair and makeup done, let me tell you we were gorgeous! After we got ready and left for the 2 hour drive to the Grand Canyon we had some time to kill and enjoyed the trip up there.
Of course there was some drama before the ceremony. I told the bride that there is going to be something that happens that will make a great story for the future generations. Well, sure enough, there is now a story to be told. At the time I reminded the bride that this was her story and she informed me that "I don't like stories." with a very somber face. I told her she would like it tomorrow.
Well, now the bride and groom are husband and wife and the pictures are taken and we are all having dinner. We hung out and talked and drank the night away. Over all the day was amazing and I would love to do it again!
The newlywed couple left the next morning for their honeymoon cruise and left the rest of us to our own devices. Jason and I went to Out of Africa animal park. We had a blast there too. There was a great white Bengal tiger that puts on a show with her 'friends' (humans who are willing to get into a cage with her). She splashed and hunted the blow up toys. It was a blast to watch her.
After we got back, Jason, Ariel, Mike and I went to dinner at Salsa Brava in Flagstaff. It was featured on Diner's Drive-ins and Dives on the Food Network. It was amazing! Best Margarita I've ever had, best food and the company was amazing! We later went to the Lowell Observatory and looked at the moon and Saturn. Kind of neat. However the most entertaining part of the night was after I downloaded the Fat Booth application for my phone. It was a blast. You take a picture of someones face, then let it do it's magic and behold, you are fat! It may not sound so interesting when you are sober but let me tell you that after a few drinks it is hilarious!
After a late evening with a ton of laughter it was time for us to go home. I was incredibly happy to see my girls. I missed them a ton! It was great to cuddle with them!
Now it's back to regular old life with all that it offers. Changing diapers, feeding, cleaning, cooking, grocery shopping, and all that goes along with it.
I guess the point of all this rambling is that even if it takes you another 5 years before your next vacation. Make sure that you do everything you to have the best time of your life. That is what vacation is for. Go see something that you've never seen before and make it memorable!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Time's a wastin'
I don't even know what to write about today but I realize that now that I'm back to work and don't have many hours of the day to sit and surf the web I need to make time for my blog. I am gone for about 10+ hours a day, haven't been home until after 10:30 most nights so far and I just need to figure out how to run my life with the 3 beautiful children that I have and work at the same time. Oh, did I mention that I would also like to take a shower every few days at least? I figured that since I already had 2 kids I would just float right into life with 3. Well, I lied to myself. It's not as easy as I led myself to believe it would be. I have really good kids but there is just so much that needs to be done. So this is what I have decided.
#1 Shower whenever you are able. There may not be another chance for a while.
#2 Let the kids that are able pick out their own clothes. It saves me a few minutes to get something else done and they get to learn how to make decisions that they have to live with for the rest of the day. Who cares if the red plaid is matched with the greens stripes. They are going to daycare, nobody cares what they are wearing.
#3 Sometimes it really is easier to eat fast food than bring a lunch. Don't sweat it when there isn't any leftovers to take. You didn't fail.
#4 As long as your children are fed and kept warm they are fine. Sometimes reading a story will get bumped for taking a shower. Don't worry about it. There is more time for stories later, also there is more time to shower later (well maybe not but you can skip this occasionally)
#5 Long hair is great, there is little you have to do to get ready and when you don't have time to spend on it you can throw it into a ponytail and go. Same goes for your children, long hair just needs to be combed and washed regularly.
#6 Let your husband do the dishes, laundry, vacuuming. Even if you don't like how he does it at least it got done.
#7 Macaroni and cheese and hot dogs is perfectly acceptable for dinner. And the children love it.
OK, those are my new rules to live by. I'm going to remember that life keeps going regardless of what you have going on.
Candice's wedding is fast approaching. Two weeks from Friday is the Bachelorette party of the century! Pure Romance party to start the evening with good food and drinks. Then on to Brit's Pub to partake of the Royal Wedding Reception. Should be an absolute blast. It will be EPIC!
Three weeks from this Friday is the wedding in Arizona at the Grand Canyon. Our flight leaves on Wednesday and we return on Sunday. This is FIVE days of only adults. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle being away from my children for that long as I haven't ever been separated for that long. Oh, and I'm nursing Alex so I get to pump all week to keep up the supply. I do have quite the pile of frozen milk in the freezer for while we are gone though.
I'm not sure those of you who don't have kids realize how much stuff I have to pack for these 5 days with Grandma. There's the normal stuff like clothes, underwear and that sort. Then there is blankets, stroller, carrier, extra shoes, pillows, formula, milk, bottles, diapers, and more that I can't even think of. I'm going to do my best to drop all of this off the day before we leave and then just drop off the stuff that we can't live without for a night, like pillows and blankets. What a trip we are taking!
I plan to drop the girls off at daycare that morning and then finish packing for myself. I don't even remember when my flight leaves so I don't know how early this morning is going to be! Oh, well it will be a great vacation and probably the last one for quite a while. Once I get home from this I have nothing on the books for months. I plan to take 3 days off to get my tubes tied in June and then I have nothing besides birthday parties from here to the end of time.
So I'm hoping to survive the next 3 weeks! Wish me luck!!!
#1 Shower whenever you are able. There may not be another chance for a while.
#2 Let the kids that are able pick out their own clothes. It saves me a few minutes to get something else done and they get to learn how to make decisions that they have to live with for the rest of the day. Who cares if the red plaid is matched with the greens stripes. They are going to daycare, nobody cares what they are wearing.
#3 Sometimes it really is easier to eat fast food than bring a lunch. Don't sweat it when there isn't any leftovers to take. You didn't fail.
#4 As long as your children are fed and kept warm they are fine. Sometimes reading a story will get bumped for taking a shower. Don't worry about it. There is more time for stories later, also there is more time to shower later (well maybe not but you can skip this occasionally)
#5 Long hair is great, there is little you have to do to get ready and when you don't have time to spend on it you can throw it into a ponytail and go. Same goes for your children, long hair just needs to be combed and washed regularly.
#6 Let your husband do the dishes, laundry, vacuuming. Even if you don't like how he does it at least it got done.
#7 Macaroni and cheese and hot dogs is perfectly acceptable for dinner. And the children love it.
OK, those are my new rules to live by. I'm going to remember that life keeps going regardless of what you have going on.
Candice's wedding is fast approaching. Two weeks from Friday is the Bachelorette party of the century! Pure Romance party to start the evening with good food and drinks. Then on to Brit's Pub to partake of the Royal Wedding Reception. Should be an absolute blast. It will be EPIC!
Three weeks from this Friday is the wedding in Arizona at the Grand Canyon. Our flight leaves on Wednesday and we return on Sunday. This is FIVE days of only adults. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle being away from my children for that long as I haven't ever been separated for that long. Oh, and I'm nursing Alex so I get to pump all week to keep up the supply. I do have quite the pile of frozen milk in the freezer for while we are gone though.
I'm not sure those of you who don't have kids realize how much stuff I have to pack for these 5 days with Grandma. There's the normal stuff like clothes, underwear and that sort. Then there is blankets, stroller, carrier, extra shoes, pillows, formula, milk, bottles, diapers, and more that I can't even think of. I'm going to do my best to drop all of this off the day before we leave and then just drop off the stuff that we can't live without for a night, like pillows and blankets. What a trip we are taking!
I plan to drop the girls off at daycare that morning and then finish packing for myself. I don't even remember when my flight leaves so I don't know how early this morning is going to be! Oh, well it will be a great vacation and probably the last one for quite a while. Once I get home from this I have nothing on the books for months. I plan to take 3 days off to get my tubes tied in June and then I have nothing besides birthday parties from here to the end of time.
So I'm hoping to survive the next 3 weeks! Wish me luck!!!
Friday, April 8, 2011
Leave of Absence...
First off let me apologize for my lack of attention recently. Things were a bit hectic and are just starting to get back into a routine. I started back to work this week. I've been moved to the Lead Generator position within my store. Let me just tell you that I have spent $10,000's on my design education and I am a KICK ASS kitchen and bath designer for Home Depot. So because I was on LOA for so long they had to fill my position and so there wasn't a designer opening for me. So they decide to put me into the Lead Generator position. While I'm glad that I have a job and all this particular job sucks!!! I want absolutely nothing to do with it. Basically it means that I will wander the store asking every customer that I talk to if we can install anything for them. Can we build you a shed to put your new lawn mower into? Does that sound fun? Not even a little bit.
My supervisor was trying to 'sell' me on this new job. Telling me that it is really quite rewarding and that I will truly start to enjoy it once I know more about it. I then asked him if there was any aspect of design to it, even a little bit? And he says no. So I tell him that it wont be fulfilling to me. I will do it and do it to the best of my abilities because that is how I roll but I wont enjoy it. I will be counting the minutes until I can get out of this job. I feel bad for those that don't have jobs and that should mean that I'm just grateful but it still sucks. I don't want to hate what I do just to pay my bills. I'm praying that another opportunity will show up soon!
I've just been a bit down since having to go to work at all so I'm just on the pitty pot right now. So basically you should ignore me until I get over my slump.
I guess everyone has a down time. I'm going through one right now. I will be better in a few days. These things never last long but they sure do suck while they are here.
Do you ever notice that it's an ever expanding list of things that upset you though and then you realize that when you are upset about something you realize that you are upset about being upset. That is what makes me the most mad actually. I hate being a downer and so I hate being that way. I should go to the gym to try to increase my endorphins. That might work?
Today is my day off from work and I need to go grocery shopping. We are out of bread, milk, and almost everything else. We will be spending a ton of money on groceries. Don't you wish groceries weren't such a waste of money? You work hard to earn money to buy the groceries that feed your family and then a few hours later they get pooped out. I think that with a family of 5 my grocery bill is just going to go up and up until they all move out. I've got to get better at only going once a month. That is a huge savings! Then during the month I only go a few times to replenish milk and bread. Keeps the bill down quite a bit!
Anyway I should stop complaining. Life sucks at times but it always gets better! No matter what the sun will shine again! So on that note...
Go find some sunshine!!!
My supervisor was trying to 'sell' me on this new job. Telling me that it is really quite rewarding and that I will truly start to enjoy it once I know more about it. I then asked him if there was any aspect of design to it, even a little bit? And he says no. So I tell him that it wont be fulfilling to me. I will do it and do it to the best of my abilities because that is how I roll but I wont enjoy it. I will be counting the minutes until I can get out of this job. I feel bad for those that don't have jobs and that should mean that I'm just grateful but it still sucks. I don't want to hate what I do just to pay my bills. I'm praying that another opportunity will show up soon!
I've just been a bit down since having to go to work at all so I'm just on the pitty pot right now. So basically you should ignore me until I get over my slump.
I guess everyone has a down time. I'm going through one right now. I will be better in a few days. These things never last long but they sure do suck while they are here.
Do you ever notice that it's an ever expanding list of things that upset you though and then you realize that when you are upset about something you realize that you are upset about being upset. That is what makes me the most mad actually. I hate being a downer and so I hate being that way. I should go to the gym to try to increase my endorphins. That might work?
Today is my day off from work and I need to go grocery shopping. We are out of bread, milk, and almost everything else. We will be spending a ton of money on groceries. Don't you wish groceries weren't such a waste of money? You work hard to earn money to buy the groceries that feed your family and then a few hours later they get pooped out. I think that with a family of 5 my grocery bill is just going to go up and up until they all move out. I've got to get better at only going once a month. That is a huge savings! Then during the month I only go a few times to replenish milk and bread. Keeps the bill down quite a bit!
Anyway I should stop complaining. Life sucks at times but it always gets better! No matter what the sun will shine again! So on that note...
Go find some sunshine!!!
Friday, March 25, 2011
I have special powers... you can too!!!
I've decided that I have special powers. Yep, super human style powers. I have 'gut feelings'. Yep. Every vehicle that I have purchased has 'spoken' to me before I bought it.
My house spoke to me from a short sentence in a newspaper. I read the description (literally only about 15 words) and I knew without a doubt in my heart that it was my house. When I drove into the drive way for the first time it was like I was coming home. I KNEW that this was my home and that no matter what happen I would own it. I was home.
Jason read me a description of our current van. I told him to go buy it. We had been shopping for a new van for a few years and nothing had worked out. We hadn't found the right one yet. Within 2 seconds of hearing about this van I told him to go up, drive it, once he ascertained that it was mechanically sound to sign the papers. Not only was it supposed to be our van because it works out perfectly but it also lowered our payment too.
This happens whenever something is suppose to happen. I've learned that God gives you what you need, when you need it. If you listen to your gut you will realize that it's God telling you what you are supposed to do. It is a giant waving flag that tells you, "DO IT!!! THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE YOURS!!!" It might be as simple as what shirt to buy, what to have for dinner, or what job to apply for. He will direct you to the right path if you let him. If it feels right, truly and absolutely right, then follow your instincts. It will rarely ever lead you wrong.
Word of advice, if you are under the influence of any mood altering drug, DO NOT trust this 'gut feeling'. It is wrong. God doesn't want you to cheat on your spouse because the hottest guy/girl you've ever seen wants to sleep with you. It is not a sign! God doesn't want you to jump of a roof because it sounds like a really good idea. "Yes, that couch will absorb your fall." No it wont. You will end up with broken bones.
So with this public service message, please stop and thank God for all that you have. If you've listened to your gut instinct and it was the right thing for you, it wasn't your stellar instincts, it was God. Thank Him. He deserves it.
My house spoke to me from a short sentence in a newspaper. I read the description (literally only about 15 words) and I knew without a doubt in my heart that it was my house. When I drove into the drive way for the first time it was like I was coming home. I KNEW that this was my home and that no matter what happen I would own it. I was home.
Jason read me a description of our current van. I told him to go buy it. We had been shopping for a new van for a few years and nothing had worked out. We hadn't found the right one yet. Within 2 seconds of hearing about this van I told him to go up, drive it, once he ascertained that it was mechanically sound to sign the papers. Not only was it supposed to be our van because it works out perfectly but it also lowered our payment too.
This happens whenever something is suppose to happen. I've learned that God gives you what you need, when you need it. If you listen to your gut you will realize that it's God telling you what you are supposed to do. It is a giant waving flag that tells you, "DO IT!!! THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE YOURS!!!" It might be as simple as what shirt to buy, what to have for dinner, or what job to apply for. He will direct you to the right path if you let him. If it feels right, truly and absolutely right, then follow your instincts. It will rarely ever lead you wrong.
Word of advice, if you are under the influence of any mood altering drug, DO NOT trust this 'gut feeling'. It is wrong. God doesn't want you to cheat on your spouse because the hottest guy/girl you've ever seen wants to sleep with you. It is not a sign! God doesn't want you to jump of a roof because it sounds like a really good idea. "Yes, that couch will absorb your fall." No it wont. You will end up with broken bones.
So with this public service message, please stop and thank God for all that you have. If you've listened to your gut instinct and it was the right thing for you, it wasn't your stellar instincts, it was God. Thank Him. He deserves it.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Well, the baptism went well. The service was good. Let me tell you what sitting in the front of the church is troubling for me. I have 3 small kids. They don't sit nicely and listen to the service. Nope, they get the activity books and color, draw, fight, drive cars around the pews. We are entertaining to watch when you aren't me. I feel that when we are in the front of the church everyone is watching us instead of listening to the sermon.
So the actual baptism went well. Except for one little glitch. They light a candle, the hand it to the sponsor. Sponsor has to hold it for a few minutes while the pastor talks some more... picture this now... Justin is standing there holding a lit candle for a few minutes. What does wax do as it melts? Drips. Right onto Justin's hand. Brave man that he is, he doesn't even flinch. Not a single change in his facial expression. What a brave, brave man. I applaud him. I would have flinched at the very least.
So we go back to our seats and Abby has to potty. So Jason takes her to the bathroom, has to walk down the center aisle, in front of everyone. 3 steps into the processional she looses her shoe, Daddy doesn't realize this for 3 more steps. Now church is laughing at us. Not being mean, just laughing.
5 minutes later, Abby now has to poop. So I'm feeding Alex and so Jason can't get out of the pew... Grandma Sig takes her this time. Again we are the entertainment in church. I love hearing kids during the service because it shows the life and vitality of the church. To me a church without young children and families feels like a dying church. Who's going to keep coming when the older generation dies? So a crying baby is a good thing for me. I just prefer that if it's going to be my child doing the crying it is in the back of the church.
We came home and had a great lunch with the family. Alex got some really cute gifts and the older kids had fun opening the presents. All in all it was a great day. Now I have a few weeks left before going back to work with nothing to do but enjoy the remaining time left.
So the actual baptism went well. Except for one little glitch. They light a candle, the hand it to the sponsor. Sponsor has to hold it for a few minutes while the pastor talks some more... picture this now... Justin is standing there holding a lit candle for a few minutes. What does wax do as it melts? Drips. Right onto Justin's hand. Brave man that he is, he doesn't even flinch. Not a single change in his facial expression. What a brave, brave man. I applaud him. I would have flinched at the very least.
So we go back to our seats and Abby has to potty. So Jason takes her to the bathroom, has to walk down the center aisle, in front of everyone. 3 steps into the processional she looses her shoe, Daddy doesn't realize this for 3 more steps. Now church is laughing at us. Not being mean, just laughing.
5 minutes later, Abby now has to poop. So I'm feeding Alex and so Jason can't get out of the pew... Grandma Sig takes her this time. Again we are the entertainment in church. I love hearing kids during the service because it shows the life and vitality of the church. To me a church without young children and families feels like a dying church. Who's going to keep coming when the older generation dies? So a crying baby is a good thing for me. I just prefer that if it's going to be my child doing the crying it is in the back of the church.
We came home and had a great lunch with the family. Alex got some really cute gifts and the older kids had fun opening the presents. All in all it was a great day. Now I have a few weeks left before going back to work with nothing to do but enjoy the remaining time left.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Shelfari
Shelfari is a website that allows you to organize the books you've read, plan to read and are currently reading. It shows you all the information regarding each book, you can choose editions and pretty much anything that you want to see. I started using it 2 years ago and since then I have read almost 300 books and plan to read about 50 currently. I find that it is very easy to add books to my to be read shelf and then not always get to them. But if I ever get stumped when I want to read something new then I can always look at what I thought sounded good in the past. It really helps me keep track of my reading. I like to know what books I've read so that I don't try to read them again. I have a tendency to forget that I read it and try to read it again. Oops...
Tomorrow is Alex's baptism. Today I'm supposed to be cleaning and cooking. So far I'm putzing online because Jason is holding Alex and I CAN! I have to go to Walmart to get the meat and cheese trays, the cake and a few of the last minute purchases. I decided to let Walmart do the most of the work for me. This way I only need to make a few salads. And another cake.
For those of that don't know I idolize Paula Deen and her desserts. I have yet to make anything from her recipes that isn't AMAZING! So for tomorrow I plan to make German Chocolate Gooey Cake. Yep, doesn't that sound amazing? I also made Homemade Kit Kat Bars, yes, from Paula Deen too.
So I suggest that you go to her website and pick out one of her amazing desserts and make it! Plan on using butter though, real butter too. It's her favorite ingredient!
Tomorrow is Alex's baptism. Today I'm supposed to be cleaning and cooking. So far I'm putzing online because Jason is holding Alex and I CAN! I have to go to Walmart to get the meat and cheese trays, the cake and a few of the last minute purchases. I decided to let Walmart do the most of the work for me. This way I only need to make a few salads. And another cake.
For those of that don't know I idolize Paula Deen and her desserts. I have yet to make anything from her recipes that isn't AMAZING! So for tomorrow I plan to make German Chocolate Gooey Cake. Yep, doesn't that sound amazing? I also made Homemade Kit Kat Bars, yes, from Paula Deen too.
So I suggest that you go to her website and pick out one of her amazing desserts and make it! Plan on using butter though, real butter too. It's her favorite ingredient!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
What to do...
I've got a To Do list about a mile long today. It seems like as I get one thing done another one gets added. We are having Alex baptised on Sunday so I need to clean my whole house (it's been a long time since it's been really cleaned) I also need to go grocery shopping for the party, get groceries for us to eat until the party, sew Alex's 'fuzzy' blanket, sew a sling, buy baptism outfits for the girls, get shoes for baptism outfits, and the list goes on.
I'm also having good friends, Candice and Brian over for dinner tomorrow night. Thank the Lord that I'm just making a lasagna that I have in the freezer, don't worry it's still homemade, just not made tomorrow. So between lasagna, garlic bread and salad we should be good to go and I don't have to do very much at all. Thank goodness for pre-planning! I love when something is as easy as putting it in the oven! Set and forget!
Alex has a cold. She is all snotty and coughing and doesn't feel very well at all. I feel so bad for her. She sounds awful and there isn't a thing that I can do for her! I'm hoping that in a day or two she will be back to her normal self. If not we'll be back to the doctor again! I think my doctor jinxed us when she said she was sad that she wont get to see her again until her 2 month check up. Now we will have to go in and visit just to keep healthy!
Abby has decided to get lippy... not sure when she decided this but she is now talking back to us. She was in trouble the other day and when I put her in a time out she informed me that I wasn't nice and needed to take a time out too. Then the next day Jason yelled at her for something and she told him that she was going to take her hand and spank his but with it. Nice, right! (Let me assure you that we don't hit our children, she knows what spanking is though) So we are starting into uncharted territory and I have no idea how to handle it! It's going to be interesting. Especially since the talking back wont end until she's about 25, so only 20 more years of it... yuck...
With the lack of sleep that I've been getting it's no wonder that my blogging has suffered. I don't even have a decent topic to talk about. It's not that life is boring it's just boring to everyone else but us! Who really wants to hear me talk more about grocery shopping or dirty diapers (which I change about 20 every stinking day). Life is busy and chaotic but only for us. I know that I get to go back to work soon and that will I'm sure provide many interesting topic to discuss. Since I deal with the public all day every day it should provide for some good stories.
Well, at least I hope so!
I'm also having good friends, Candice and Brian over for dinner tomorrow night. Thank the Lord that I'm just making a lasagna that I have in the freezer, don't worry it's still homemade, just not made tomorrow. So between lasagna, garlic bread and salad we should be good to go and I don't have to do very much at all. Thank goodness for pre-planning! I love when something is as easy as putting it in the oven! Set and forget!
Alex has a cold. She is all snotty and coughing and doesn't feel very well at all. I feel so bad for her. She sounds awful and there isn't a thing that I can do for her! I'm hoping that in a day or two she will be back to her normal self. If not we'll be back to the doctor again! I think my doctor jinxed us when she said she was sad that she wont get to see her again until her 2 month check up. Now we will have to go in and visit just to keep healthy!
Abby has decided to get lippy... not sure when she decided this but she is now talking back to us. She was in trouble the other day and when I put her in a time out she informed me that I wasn't nice and needed to take a time out too. Then the next day Jason yelled at her for something and she told him that she was going to take her hand and spank his but with it. Nice, right! (Let me assure you that we don't hit our children, she knows what spanking is though) So we are starting into uncharted territory and I have no idea how to handle it! It's going to be interesting. Especially since the talking back wont end until she's about 25, so only 20 more years of it... yuck...
With the lack of sleep that I've been getting it's no wonder that my blogging has suffered. I don't even have a decent topic to talk about. It's not that life is boring it's just boring to everyone else but us! Who really wants to hear me talk more about grocery shopping or dirty diapers (which I change about 20 every stinking day). Life is busy and chaotic but only for us. I know that I get to go back to work soon and that will I'm sure provide many interesting topic to discuss. Since I deal with the public all day every day it should provide for some good stories.
Well, at least I hope so!
Friday, March 4, 2011
Alex's Photo's are Here!
An old friend of mine decided that he loved taking photographs and decided that he wanted to start taking photos professionally. Well, he is amazing! I just got the photo's that he took of Alex and they are wonderful. For dealing with a newborn that did not want her picture taken they turned out really well! He really captured her expressions and even though we are basically dealing with one pose for most of the pictures they all are unique. So anyway, here is the link to my beautiful little girl's pictures...
http://www.andrewmichaelphoto.com/Portraits/alextempel/16057308
Take a look and be jealous that your kids aren't this beautiful!
If you want pictures done by this fine gentleman please contact Andrew Michael Photography at the above link as well!
http://www.andrewmichaelphoto.com/Portraits/alextempel/16057308
Take a look and be jealous that your kids aren't this beautiful!
If you want pictures done by this fine gentleman please contact Andrew Michael Photography at the above link as well!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Grocery Shopping is a vacation?
So I haven't blogged for awhile. I have been just trying to keep my eyes open. I forgot how exhausting it is to be up with a newborn at night. The longest stretch of sleep that I have gotten since she was born is almost 6 hours. Normally though it is between 2-3 hours. I may be weird though. I really actually like the alone time that I get with Alex. The house is silent and we are simply cuddling while she nurses. Some nights I can't keep my eyes open and we just cuddle while I hope that I don't drop her on the floor!
Abby and Kate go to daycare on Tuesday and Thursday's at 10:30. This gives me a few hours alone. On Tuesday's I go grocery shopping. This is my big expedition for the week. I get to walk around Walmart by myself (Alex joins me now) for around an hour. I get to look at all the same merchandise that is there every week but it is like a small vacation! I look forward to it every week. Sad? Yes. Do I accept it? Yes.
I've been working on getting the rest of my maternity leave figured out and after a few conversations with the HR department I've got most of it figured out. I had an audit done on my vacation time and sick time and apparently I have about 21 hours more than I thought I did. Now I have to figure out how to use it before I loose it in April. Apparently I have a few more conversations in my future.
I'm kind of nervous because I've been a designer with the Depot for years and they of course hired somebody to replace me while I was gone. Well, that doesn't leave much opportunity for me to be a designer again. So what does that leave for me? I have no idea but hopefully it will all work out. All that really matters is that I have a job and will continue to get a paycheck!
I'm going to try to keep up on my blogging. No more excuses. Sleep deprived or not, I WILL BLOG!!!
Abby and Kate go to daycare on Tuesday and Thursday's at 10:30. This gives me a few hours alone. On Tuesday's I go grocery shopping. This is my big expedition for the week. I get to walk around Walmart by myself (Alex joins me now) for around an hour. I get to look at all the same merchandise that is there every week but it is like a small vacation! I look forward to it every week. Sad? Yes. Do I accept it? Yes.
I've been working on getting the rest of my maternity leave figured out and after a few conversations with the HR department I've got most of it figured out. I had an audit done on my vacation time and sick time and apparently I have about 21 hours more than I thought I did. Now I have to figure out how to use it before I loose it in April. Apparently I have a few more conversations in my future.
I'm kind of nervous because I've been a designer with the Depot for years and they of course hired somebody to replace me while I was gone. Well, that doesn't leave much opportunity for me to be a designer again. So what does that leave for me? I have no idea but hopefully it will all work out. All that really matters is that I have a job and will continue to get a paycheck!
I'm going to try to keep up on my blogging. No more excuses. Sleep deprived or not, I WILL BLOG!!!
Monday, February 21, 2011
School Cancelled...
So Jason went back to work today. I woke up for the first time alone with my 3 children. I was a little nervous about this but in reality it was ok this morning. Basically the same as every other day, only this time Alex was here.
Last night I sat and watched the news hoping that school was cancelled. Today was Abby's last day of Preschool Playgroup and it started at 9:15. Well, I had my alarm set for 6:30 to get up and start getting ready to leave and get Abby to school by 9:15. I figured with the snow and having 3 kids it wasn't going to take me a few extra minutes to get out the door by myself with them. So I finally go to bed a little after 10 and as of going to bed school was still on. 10 minutes later Jason comes up stairs and tells me that school is cancelled. While I realize that Abby is going to be very sad, they were going outside to play today you see, I was very happy. I reached over and turned off my alarm. Best news I'd heard in a long time! So I go to bed a happy woman.
It wouldn't be so bad but here's the routine for taking Abby to school. I get everyone dressed in winter gear, load them into the van, drive a half a mile to school, park, unload all children, walk Abby to her classroom, take off all Abby's winter gear, sign her in, turn around and walk back to the van, load remaining children up, drive a half a mile back home, unload remaining children, take of remaining childrens winter gear. This is done at 9:15, well playgroup only lasts until 10:45 so by 10:30 less than an hour after I got home I start the process all over again only in reverse. Dropping Abby off at school is a hassle. No way around it. The teachers don't help out in the way of collecting kids at the door or walking them out when class is over. Nope they stay inside where it's nice an warm and make the parents haul their entire family all around the country. Now don't take this as being ungrateful to our teachers. The playgroup is free and a wonderful thing for Abby to take part in. I just wish the dropping off and picking up were easier!
Well, school is over until this fall so I guess I don't have to worry about it for a while.
Last night I sat and watched the news hoping that school was cancelled. Today was Abby's last day of Preschool Playgroup and it started at 9:15. Well, I had my alarm set for 6:30 to get up and start getting ready to leave and get Abby to school by 9:15. I figured with the snow and having 3 kids it wasn't going to take me a few extra minutes to get out the door by myself with them. So I finally go to bed a little after 10 and as of going to bed school was still on. 10 minutes later Jason comes up stairs and tells me that school is cancelled. While I realize that Abby is going to be very sad, they were going outside to play today you see, I was very happy. I reached over and turned off my alarm. Best news I'd heard in a long time! So I go to bed a happy woman.
It wouldn't be so bad but here's the routine for taking Abby to school. I get everyone dressed in winter gear, load them into the van, drive a half a mile to school, park, unload all children, walk Abby to her classroom, take off all Abby's winter gear, sign her in, turn around and walk back to the van, load remaining children up, drive a half a mile back home, unload remaining children, take of remaining childrens winter gear. This is done at 9:15, well playgroup only lasts until 10:45 so by 10:30 less than an hour after I got home I start the process all over again only in reverse. Dropping Abby off at school is a hassle. No way around it. The teachers don't help out in the way of collecting kids at the door or walking them out when class is over. Nope they stay inside where it's nice an warm and make the parents haul their entire family all around the country. Now don't take this as being ungrateful to our teachers. The playgroup is free and a wonderful thing for Abby to take part in. I just wish the dropping off and picking up were easier!
Well, school is over until this fall so I guess I don't have to worry about it for a while.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Well, Vacation is OVER!
So today is the last day that Jason is home. He goes back to work tomorrow. Meaning I will be home all by myself with the girls tomorrow. Of course, Abby has school from 9:15 - 10:45 and Alex has a doctor appointment at 1:00. So I get to haul all three of them around half of the day tomorrow. Oh, well. I guess it will be fine.
Currently Jason is holding Alex so I can have some 'free' time. I figured I would do some social networking and get caught up on the outside world.
Last night Alex slept from 9:00pm - 2:30am (5 1/2 hours) and then from 3:00am to 7:30am (4 1/2 hours). Yes, she is 11 days old and we only got up once to feed during the night. I have been blessed with good sleepers with Abby and Kate. I'm hoping that I get to be that lucky with Alex.
I don't have too much else to say and Alex is fussing, which means that she is hungry when Jason is holding her! He just shushes her and waits for me to finish what I'm doing and take her back. He'll be alone with her soon enough!
Currently Jason is holding Alex so I can have some 'free' time. I figured I would do some social networking and get caught up on the outside world.
Last night Alex slept from 9:00pm - 2:30am (5 1/2 hours) and then from 3:00am to 7:30am (4 1/2 hours). Yes, she is 11 days old and we only got up once to feed during the night. I have been blessed with good sleepers with Abby and Kate. I'm hoping that I get to be that lucky with Alex.
I don't have too much else to say and Alex is fussing, which means that she is hungry when Jason is holding her! He just shushes her and waits for me to finish what I'm doing and take her back. He'll be alone with her soon enough!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Still a banana!
Well, we had our one week check up and Alex is doing great. Aside from being the color of a ripe banana she is fine. Growing well and eating well and sleeping well. I'm a very very very very very very very very lucky momma. My children have all slept really well from the time they are born. Sometime I wonder if it's the universes way of being nice to me after the horrible pregnancy. I go through 9 months of hell to have a beautiful, healthy, well behaved newborn.
Here's a theory, pray for a difficult pregnancy because then you will have easy children. Have an easy pregnancy and you will have difficult children? I like it. It makes me feel better for all the women who have great and easy pregnancies. I hate all those women by the way. They are the bane of my existence when the worse thing the experience is trouble getting comfortable. Well, guess what, you have a BABY in your uterus and so you are supposed to be uncomfortable. It isn't easy being pregnant and so you should have a little discomfort. Ok, well maybe not for everyone but really you are creating life. Why is it easy for some women and so hard for others?
I'm very thankful and feel extremely blessed that I can even have children. There are plenty of women out there that cannot have children and I thank my lucky stars every day that I'm not one of them.
I've realized that getting my tubes tied will make it impossible for me to get pregnant and that makes me a little sad because man oh man do I love having a newborn. They are my favorite stage of life so far. They are just so cuddly and warm and perfect. So getting my tubes tied in a few months makes me very sad but I can't go through another pregnancy. We don't want anymore children and this will make sure that it doesn't happen. Sad but required and I have a few months to come to terms with that so I'll deal. Don't worry.
I feel cheated though that I get to sit home on my ass, sicker than a dog for months while pregnant and then when the baby comes out I get a measly 6 weeks to recover and enjoy what it took so much to make before having to return to work. While I look forward to getting back to regular life I also wish that I had more time to stay at home and enjoy my baby. I've been out of work on modified bed rest since August 5th, 2010 and then when she is born on Feb. 9th, 2011 and I will be back to work around March 23rd, 2011. It just seems so unfair! I guess I will get over it, like everything else in life but it still sucks!
Well, Alex is sleeping and the girls are at daycare so I should probably go make some lunch and take a nap.
Talk to you soon!
Here's a theory, pray for a difficult pregnancy because then you will have easy children. Have an easy pregnancy and you will have difficult children? I like it. It makes me feel better for all the women who have great and easy pregnancies. I hate all those women by the way. They are the bane of my existence when the worse thing the experience is trouble getting comfortable. Well, guess what, you have a BABY in your uterus and so you are supposed to be uncomfortable. It isn't easy being pregnant and so you should have a little discomfort. Ok, well maybe not for everyone but really you are creating life. Why is it easy for some women and so hard for others?
I'm very thankful and feel extremely blessed that I can even have children. There are plenty of women out there that cannot have children and I thank my lucky stars every day that I'm not one of them.
I've realized that getting my tubes tied will make it impossible for me to get pregnant and that makes me a little sad because man oh man do I love having a newborn. They are my favorite stage of life so far. They are just so cuddly and warm and perfect. So getting my tubes tied in a few months makes me very sad but I can't go through another pregnancy. We don't want anymore children and this will make sure that it doesn't happen. Sad but required and I have a few months to come to terms with that so I'll deal. Don't worry.
I feel cheated though that I get to sit home on my ass, sicker than a dog for months while pregnant and then when the baby comes out I get a measly 6 weeks to recover and enjoy what it took so much to make before having to return to work. While I look forward to getting back to regular life I also wish that I had more time to stay at home and enjoy my baby. I've been out of work on modified bed rest since August 5th, 2010 and then when she is born on Feb. 9th, 2011 and I will be back to work around March 23rd, 2011. It just seems so unfair! I guess I will get over it, like everything else in life but it still sucks!
Well, Alex is sleeping and the girls are at daycare so I should probably go make some lunch and take a nap.
Talk to you soon!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Chunky Monkey turning into a Banana?
So we've been home for a few days now and everything is starting to relax a bit. The girls are getting used to Alex and Alex is getting used to everything. Thank goodness Jason is home from work until at least Wednesday and maybe through next week. It will depend on how I'm doing and if I want him home or not. I love the fact that he will take a few extra days off from work if I want him home with us. I love this man! He has to put up with everything that I put him through and now on top of it all he is surrounded by 3 little girls.
When we left the hospital on Friday Alex was a little bit jaundice. Well Saturday was ok, Sunday morning however she was so yellow the whites of her eyes were the color of urine. So we took her into Urgent Care and they checked her bilirubin levels and she was ok so far. The doc told me to have it checked again on Monday to make sure that the levels weren't going up and she would need light treatment. So I took her back in today and we are waiting on the results of this blood test. Dr. Rohr thinks she will be fine but we are waiting on the blood test to be sure. I've been teasing her that she is trying to go from our Chunky Monkey to our Banana. Oh well. We'll see what happens today but hopefully she will be fine.
Sleeping has gotten better. I can at least put her into her crib and she will sleep there! I actually got a few hours of sleep last night. Still tired today but so far so good. I just have to try to go to bed earlier and sleep when she sleeps.
We took her on her first outing yesterday to the Farm. My mom made us dinner and so we went and visited and was again reminded how awesome my mom is. She got the girls Valentine's Day presents, which they loved, and made us dinner and everything! On Saturday she took Abby for a few hours and brought us Tator Tot Hotdish for dinner too. So since I've been home I haven't had to worry about dinner yet! Again she is amazing!
Well, having 3 children is amazing. Abby and Kate want to help out and they are totally obsessed with breastfeeding. They think that it is super funny that Alex eats from my boob. Well, if they didn't have to tell everyone about it it wouldn't be so bad but I'm pretty sure that Grandpa doesn't want to hear about me and my boobs. Slightly uncomfortable.
Well, Alex is sleeping right now so I should be trying to take a nap but here I am putzing on the Internet. I guess social networking has ruined yet another opportunity for sleep.
Until another day...
When we left the hospital on Friday Alex was a little bit jaundice. Well Saturday was ok, Sunday morning however she was so yellow the whites of her eyes were the color of urine. So we took her into Urgent Care and they checked her bilirubin levels and she was ok so far. The doc told me to have it checked again on Monday to make sure that the levels weren't going up and she would need light treatment. So I took her back in today and we are waiting on the results of this blood test. Dr. Rohr thinks she will be fine but we are waiting on the blood test to be sure. I've been teasing her that she is trying to go from our Chunky Monkey to our Banana. Oh well. We'll see what happens today but hopefully she will be fine.
Sleeping has gotten better. I can at least put her into her crib and she will sleep there! I actually got a few hours of sleep last night. Still tired today but so far so good. I just have to try to go to bed earlier and sleep when she sleeps.
We took her on her first outing yesterday to the Farm. My mom made us dinner and so we went and visited and was again reminded how awesome my mom is. She got the girls Valentine's Day presents, which they loved, and made us dinner and everything! On Saturday she took Abby for a few hours and brought us Tator Tot Hotdish for dinner too. So since I've been home I haven't had to worry about dinner yet! Again she is amazing!
Well, having 3 children is amazing. Abby and Kate want to help out and they are totally obsessed with breastfeeding. They think that it is super funny that Alex eats from my boob. Well, if they didn't have to tell everyone about it it wouldn't be so bad but I'm pretty sure that Grandpa doesn't want to hear about me and my boobs. Slightly uncomfortable.
Well, Alex is sleeping right now so I should be trying to take a nap but here I am putzing on the Internet. I guess social networking has ruined yet another opportunity for sleep.
Until another day...
Friday, February 11, 2011
NOT PREGNANT ANYMORE!!!
Baby's Name: Alexandra Marie
Date of Birth: February 9, 2011
Original Due Date: February 19, 2011
Weeks Pregnant: 38 weeks 4 days
Weight: 8 lbs 2 oz
Length: 22.5 inches
Birth Story:
On Tuesday the 8th at my 38w3d OB appt my doc stripped my membranes. It was uncomfortable and she told me that she really got in there and worked it up. So I went home and made a grocery list and relaxed for awhile. I noticed that my vagina felt very sore, like it was bruised. I figured that it was from getting stripped and hoped that it would ease up in a day or two. While walking around Wal-mart getting my groceries it was so painful to just walk. I was having a ton more pressure and I was finally 'waddling'. After I got home and made dinner I just laid on the couch and relaxed to try to help the pain.
Throughout the evening my BH's were more painful but again I thought my cervix was bruised from the exam. Went to bed and at 1:00 woke up and went to the bathroom. Had 3 contractions between 1:00 and 2:00. At 2:00am the contractions decided to come every 4 minutes. I'd been having BH for weeks and they were annoying to I decided to ignore them. Well, by 2:40 they were still there so I thought, 'Fine I'll time you for an hour and see what happens.'
At 3:30 I was sitting in my rocker and turned the fan off and accidentally woke my DH up. He asked how far apart they were and told him they were now 3 min 30 sec apart. He decided that we were going in and told me to call my mom. So we got dressed and went downstairs. Called my mom at 4:00am and her and her boyfriend were at my house and we were at the hospital by 4:30am.
The nurse checked me at 5:00am and I was at 4cm but still pretty far back. They decided to watch me for an hour and see what happens. Contractions were still pretty manageable at this point. Well at 6:00am I asked to be checked again because my contractions were much more painful and I wanted to know where I was. Well I was only at 5cm but was all the way to the front and 100% effaced. The nurses decided that I would be delivering soon and I decided to get the epidural. I was trying to go natural but the contractions were just so flipping bad!
Well they have to give you a full bag of fluid and we had to wait for the anesthesiologist (sp?) to get there. I made it through my bag of fluid and Brad (my new most favorite person in the world) got there. He asked me if I wanted the epidural or an intrathecal (sp?). He told me that the intrathecal would be instant relief and epidural could take up to 20 minutes.
I decided on the intrathecal. He numbed the spot between one contraction, waited until the next was passed, gave the intrathecal and I never felt the next one! Heaven in a needle! Best decision of my life! You have to lay on your back for the full effect and I started to itch. I thought I was having a reaction but apparently it's totally normal because of the phentonal (sp?) in it.
So now I'm out of pain but itchy. Totally worth it!!! This was at 7:00am. I had 2 nurses, one charge and a training nurse. They decided to check me again and so the charge nurse checked me and then had the training nurse check me (for educational purposes) I was complete and my bag of water was bulging! YAY!!!
My Ob was there with another doc who was also in training and my doc asked me if the new doc could deliver my baby. Sure, why not!
So they set up and she broke my water, yuck, very gross! Then everyone literally stood around me waiting for me to feel a contraction and push. It was surreal, we were all joking around and having fun. My first two deliveries were very quick and there wasn't any fun! Because of the intrathecal I was in heaven.
Nobody was paying any attention to me and I felt pressure so I pushed.
Well, on the 4th push there was a ring of fire and I pushed her head out. The cord was wrapped around her neck and they couldn't get it undone until she was all the way out so I pushed her out with the rest of that push and she was here! 4 pushed total and she was laying on my chest. I felt everything without any of the pain.
My 3rd little girl was here at 7:52am, less than 6 hours after the first contraction, weighing in at 8 lbs 2 oz and was 22 1/2" long.
It was a blast this time and if you are debating the drugs I suggest you get it and enjoy the birth of your baby! It was a ton of fun for me anyway!
This is my current fav photo but for some reason it's upside down online. Sorry for that!
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Great Doctor Appointment Today!
So after my complaining post yesterday I decided that I would post something a little more up beat today.
I had my 38 week appointment today and while I know that I lost my mucus plug last Thursday I knew that didn't mean that anything had changed since last week. Last week I was 1 cm dilated and still pretty thick. Well this week....
Drum roll please...........................................................
3 CM and not as thick!!!
3 cm! That means that I only have 7 left to go. It usually took me the longest to get to 3-4 and then I get to 6 or so and stall for a little bit and then BAM I'm at 10 and the baby is here. This is great news! Active labor starts at 4 usually. I've been using Evening Primrose for a few weeks now and I'd say that it is certainly helping me dilate my cervix!
I also asked Dr. Rohr if she would strip my membranes. What that means, for those of you less educated folk...lol... is the doctor sweeps her fingers around the inside of my cervix to separate the bag of waters and cervix. It can help to jump start labor by causing the beginning of a breakdown in the integrity of the bag of water.
With Kate and Abby I had this done. With Abby it didn't do too much but with Kate I went into labor on my own a few days later. I'm hoping that since I'm already to 3 cm that she was really able to get in there and strip them out.
I know that unless you've been pregnant before you don't really understand how exciting it is to be dilated to a 3 when labor hasn't even started yet. At the end of pregnancy you are so ready to be done and meet your little one that any news of progression is great news.
I could have jumped up and down on the exam table is she wasn't still examining me! 3 cm is almost a third of the way done! Now I called Jason to tell him the great news and he wasn't very excited. I don't think he understands the importance of this life changing news! It seriously changes the way we will act once my water does break.
Normal routine: water breaks, I waddle around with a towel between my legs making phone calls to the important people, then we wait until someone comes to watch our children and we go to the hospital. This is done with excitement and a little bit of hurried activity since first labor was 4 hours long. So we figured that we should probably book it to the hospital pretty quickly in case it went even faster.
This time: Water Breaks, I waddle around with towel between my legs making phone calls to important people. Mom rushes to our house with Chuck and her driver and we will be leaving for the hospital while Chuck waits for someone to watch our children. We will not be sticking around waiting for people this time. If I'm already to a 3 and my labors only took a few hours when I start at a 1 then this one will hopefully go even faster!
Yes, people I'm hoping for a VERY fast labor and delivery. I have yet to push my children out into the world because when they decide to be born then literally shoot out into the world. No pushing, very little warning, just BAM, here I am!
Here's the deal, labor hurts, it is one of the most painful things a woman will ever go through in her life. Bringing a human being into this world should be something that makes you stop and notice things. It shouldn't be easy, it should make you realize how big of a miracle it really is. Well, that my friend is in the form of pain. Pushing out a football sized infant from your vagina is going to hurt a little bit. Guys, imagine pushing out a lime from your penis. Not a fun picture.
Why not get the epidural? Well, I'm not opposed to them at all. I've tried to get then with both previous deliveries but my babies decide that I shouldn't get to feel the numbing effects until they are already born. Apparently something happens while I'm getting the epidural that causes the babies to decide to come right then. Not in 10 minutes when the drugs are working, nope. Right then. So I figure, why should I waste everyones time and money to get an epidural when the baby will be here soon anyway. I've come to realize that when I ask for the epidural it means that the baby will be there soon anyway. So if I can hold off for a little bit longer I wont need to go through the pain of holding still while the give me the epidural.
Yeah, when they tell you that you need to hold perfectly still while you are going through the most painful contractions of your life you really want to hurt them. It's not possible but they want you to do it anyway. Why they can't pause until the contraction is over I don't know.
So apparently I've decided that I enjoy blogging because every time I think I'm going to post something short and give you all an update it turns into a short story. I guess I'm just excited today and I want you all to hear about it. I'll stop typing very soon here and give you all a break until tomorrow when something else happens that I decide you just have to hear about!
Have a good day!
Labor wishes for me please!!!
I had my 38 week appointment today and while I know that I lost my mucus plug last Thursday I knew that didn't mean that anything had changed since last week. Last week I was 1 cm dilated and still pretty thick. Well this week....
Drum roll please...........................................................
3 CM and not as thick!!!
3 cm! That means that I only have 7 left to go. It usually took me the longest to get to 3-4 and then I get to 6 or so and stall for a little bit and then BAM I'm at 10 and the baby is here. This is great news! Active labor starts at 4 usually. I've been using Evening Primrose for a few weeks now and I'd say that it is certainly helping me dilate my cervix!
I also asked Dr. Rohr if she would strip my membranes. What that means, for those of you less educated folk...lol... is the doctor sweeps her fingers around the inside of my cervix to separate the bag of waters and cervix. It can help to jump start labor by causing the beginning of a breakdown in the integrity of the bag of water.
With Kate and Abby I had this done. With Abby it didn't do too much but with Kate I went into labor on my own a few days later. I'm hoping that since I'm already to 3 cm that she was really able to get in there and strip them out.
I know that unless you've been pregnant before you don't really understand how exciting it is to be dilated to a 3 when labor hasn't even started yet. At the end of pregnancy you are so ready to be done and meet your little one that any news of progression is great news.
I could have jumped up and down on the exam table is she wasn't still examining me! 3 cm is almost a third of the way done! Now I called Jason to tell him the great news and he wasn't very excited. I don't think he understands the importance of this life changing news! It seriously changes the way we will act once my water does break.
Normal routine: water breaks, I waddle around with a towel between my legs making phone calls to the important people, then we wait until someone comes to watch our children and we go to the hospital. This is done with excitement and a little bit of hurried activity since first labor was 4 hours long. So we figured that we should probably book it to the hospital pretty quickly in case it went even faster.
This time: Water Breaks, I waddle around with towel between my legs making phone calls to important people. Mom rushes to our house with Chuck and her driver and we will be leaving for the hospital while Chuck waits for someone to watch our children. We will not be sticking around waiting for people this time. If I'm already to a 3 and my labors only took a few hours when I start at a 1 then this one will hopefully go even faster!
Yes, people I'm hoping for a VERY fast labor and delivery. I have yet to push my children out into the world because when they decide to be born then literally shoot out into the world. No pushing, very little warning, just BAM, here I am!
Here's the deal, labor hurts, it is one of the most painful things a woman will ever go through in her life. Bringing a human being into this world should be something that makes you stop and notice things. It shouldn't be easy, it should make you realize how big of a miracle it really is. Well, that my friend is in the form of pain. Pushing out a football sized infant from your vagina is going to hurt a little bit. Guys, imagine pushing out a lime from your penis. Not a fun picture.
Why not get the epidural? Well, I'm not opposed to them at all. I've tried to get then with both previous deliveries but my babies decide that I shouldn't get to feel the numbing effects until they are already born. Apparently something happens while I'm getting the epidural that causes the babies to decide to come right then. Not in 10 minutes when the drugs are working, nope. Right then. So I figure, why should I waste everyones time and money to get an epidural when the baby will be here soon anyway. I've come to realize that when I ask for the epidural it means that the baby will be there soon anyway. So if I can hold off for a little bit longer I wont need to go through the pain of holding still while the give me the epidural.
Yeah, when they tell you that you need to hold perfectly still while you are going through the most painful contractions of your life you really want to hurt them. It's not possible but they want you to do it anyway. Why they can't pause until the contraction is over I don't know.
So apparently I've decided that I enjoy blogging because every time I think I'm going to post something short and give you all an update it turns into a short story. I guess I'm just excited today and I want you all to hear about it. I'll stop typing very soon here and give you all a break until tomorrow when something else happens that I decide you just have to hear about!
Have a good day!
Labor wishes for me please!!!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Still Pregnant...
So I'm sure you all are getting fed up with my constant pregnancy posts but I don't care. When you are this uncomfortable and sick feeling you will be obsessed with going into labor too. Since this is the 3rd time I know that it is going to be extremely painful but worth it in the end. Over the last 9+ months I have literally created life. I'm anxious to meet this little one. I want to see her and look into her eyes. I want to hold her hand and nurse her and change her and just plain touch her.
OK, while that is really the most important thing, meeting this little one, really I just want my body back. I'm so sick for the entire 9 months that I want to be all by myself in my body. I want to shower alone, I want to poop alone. I am ready to have a swollen who ha, sore nipples, lack of sleep and all of that.
In the last few days I have lost my mucus plug, had consistent contractions for 2 days now. Like every 10 minutes or so since Saturday. Then on Sunday I made homemade chicken and cheese enchiladas (one of my favorites) to eat while watching the big Superbowl game. I start to eat and started to get sick. I sat on the couch and was so sick to my stomach that I was literally curled into a ball and trying to breathe through it. So finally about 2 hours later I was finally able to go to the bathroom and felt a little better after that. I was sick throughout the night with cramps and pain in my back, all the while having contractions. I'm thinking that this is it. I was just waiting for my water to break. Well I went to bed and fell asleep right away. I NEVER fall asleep right away.
I woke up this morning still pregnant. Not in labor yet. So I get up and get Abby ready for school, drop her off and go to breakfast with my Mom. Well, that makes me sick too. I come home after picking up Abby and lay on the couch. I literally cannot keep my eyes open and take a nap while she watches cartoons. My mom, the saint that she is took Kate for the morning to hang out with her. So I napped for about and hour and a half before Mom brings Kate back. She then proceeded the change her diaper, make the girls lunch and put Kate down for her nap. All while I lay on the couch trying to stay warm. They say that you can get flu like symptoms before you go into labor.
Well, hopefully my body realizes that it has given me pretty much every single symptom of going in to labor without actually going into labor. Literally I've had every single old wives tale and yet, here I sit still pregnant. I am officially miserable and am ready to get this baby out. I mean like OUT NOW! I'm almost willing to do anything to get her out.
There is one thing that I don't think that I can do but might work. Castor Oil. It is a laxative that causes you to have contractions because of the explosive pooping. Well, it's an oil and the taste is awful. I don't do well with things that taste so bad. I don't think that I can drink it. It's the only thing that I can't seem to do.
I think that I am going to concentrate on staying hydrated so that when I do go into labor it will go a little bit easier. I know that I'm complaining and someday I may wish to be pregnant again. But then my wonderful husband will smack me around a bit and make sure that I remember that it sucks for me! I'm hoping that I can end this part of my life soon. I really want to meet this little girl. I really want to have my body back and tomorrow at my ob appointment I will be asking about how we can make that happen.
Can we induce? Please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please?????????
Anything to end this misery!!!
OK, while that is really the most important thing, meeting this little one, really I just want my body back. I'm so sick for the entire 9 months that I want to be all by myself in my body. I want to shower alone, I want to poop alone. I am ready to have a swollen who ha, sore nipples, lack of sleep and all of that.
In the last few days I have lost my mucus plug, had consistent contractions for 2 days now. Like every 10 minutes or so since Saturday. Then on Sunday I made homemade chicken and cheese enchiladas (one of my favorites) to eat while watching the big Superbowl game. I start to eat and started to get sick. I sat on the couch and was so sick to my stomach that I was literally curled into a ball and trying to breathe through it. So finally about 2 hours later I was finally able to go to the bathroom and felt a little better after that. I was sick throughout the night with cramps and pain in my back, all the while having contractions. I'm thinking that this is it. I was just waiting for my water to break. Well I went to bed and fell asleep right away. I NEVER fall asleep right away.
I woke up this morning still pregnant. Not in labor yet. So I get up and get Abby ready for school, drop her off and go to breakfast with my Mom. Well, that makes me sick too. I come home after picking up Abby and lay on the couch. I literally cannot keep my eyes open and take a nap while she watches cartoons. My mom, the saint that she is took Kate for the morning to hang out with her. So I napped for about and hour and a half before Mom brings Kate back. She then proceeded the change her diaper, make the girls lunch and put Kate down for her nap. All while I lay on the couch trying to stay warm. They say that you can get flu like symptoms before you go into labor.
Well, hopefully my body realizes that it has given me pretty much every single symptom of going in to labor without actually going into labor. Literally I've had every single old wives tale and yet, here I sit still pregnant. I am officially miserable and am ready to get this baby out. I mean like OUT NOW! I'm almost willing to do anything to get her out.
There is one thing that I don't think that I can do but might work. Castor Oil. It is a laxative that causes you to have contractions because of the explosive pooping. Well, it's an oil and the taste is awful. I don't do well with things that taste so bad. I don't think that I can drink it. It's the only thing that I can't seem to do.
I think that I am going to concentrate on staying hydrated so that when I do go into labor it will go a little bit easier. I know that I'm complaining and someday I may wish to be pregnant again. But then my wonderful husband will smack me around a bit and make sure that I remember that it sucks for me! I'm hoping that I can end this part of my life soon. I really want to meet this little girl. I really want to have my body back and tomorrow at my ob appointment I will be asking about how we can make that happen.
Can we induce? Please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please?????????
Anything to end this misery!!!
Saturday, February 5, 2011
38 weeks today...
That's it...
38 weeks today.
Kaitlyn came at 38 weeks 2 days and Abby came at 39 weeks exactly.
Keep hoping for labor to start!!!
38 weeks today.
Kaitlyn came at 38 weeks 2 days and Abby came at 39 weeks exactly.
Keep hoping for labor to start!!!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Early labor and the Superbowl????
Next progress report for this never ending pregnancy...
Yesterday I officially lost my mucus plug. Let me warn you, if you have a weak stomach you don't want to hear about a mucus plug. it is the single most discusting thing that will ever exit your vagina. It is exactly what it sounds like. Made of mucus that plugs your cervix. It's gross.
The exciting part is that when you lose it it means that labor is coming soon. It can range from a few hours to weeks before labor starts but the important thing is that labor IS coming. Your body goes through a few different stages when leading up to going into labor.
1. braxton hicks contractions - these can start as early as 15-20 weeks and you literally just get to put up with them as they are nothing more than practice contractions.
2. baby dropping - baby goes from floating peacefully in your uterus to being engaged in your pelvis. The baby eventually has to exit through your pelvis so in preparation it sort of gets their head stuck in your pelvis. This is good and bad. The good thing is your heartburn gets better and you can breathe easier. The bad thing is you are now peeing every 15 minutes again. There isn't any room for urine in your bladder anymore.
3. loss of your mucus plug - this is the single most discusting thing that will exit your vagina, and I should know I've given birth twice now. You get to wipe after going to the bathroom for the 30th time that day and here it is on your toilet paper. Ummmm, gross.
4. dilation - some women will start to dilate days or even weeks before they go into labor. It is more common for women who are on at least pregnancy #2 + to start to dilate before labor.
These are some of the signs of early labor. You can have 1 or 2 of these signs or none at all. There is no rhyme or reason to labor and what gets it started. I so far have exhibited all of these and yet true labor has yet to set in. I lost the mucus plug yesterday and my water still hasn't broken, true contractions have yet to start.
While technically it is easier to take care of the baby before birth it is tiring. No one can help with her. I don't get to set her down for a minute. I can't take a shower by myself. You are on baby duty 100% of the time. Once she is born I will be able to set her down or give her to Jason to hold while I do the dishes. I will be able to shave my legs, see my own vagina, and put shoes on without having to hold my breath. There is an approx. 7 lb baby sitting on my bladder and I am doing nothing but praying that she decides to make her exit sooner rather than later.
So my plan for the day is to get caught up on my dishes (they have been piling up), clean and vacuum my living room. Maybe sort the clean laundry (that might be a stretch but we'll see). My goal is to get some contractions started and see if it jump starts anything.
So wish me luck in the labor starting process. Hopefully I wont be able to blog for a few days because I will be in the hospital.
Speaking of being in the hospital... Sunday is the Superbowl and the Packers are playing in it. My wonderful, amazing husband says that he will be watching the game and it doesn't matter if I'm in labor or not. I told him that there will not be a football game on while I'm in labor and if he wants to watch he will be doing so in the waiting room. If he decides that this football game is more important than the birth of our last child he will be sleeping on the couch for months. It will be unforgivable. We have DVR for a reason. He will be able to watch it when he gets home. I really want to not be in labor while the game is on so that I don't have to have that memory burned into my brain. He doesn't seem to realize that I have gone through 9+ months of HELL to bring this child into the world and at the last stage of the process (the most painful part, mind you) I need him to be focused on me and anything that I may need. With the last two he pretty much just watched me be in pain, well this one I have given him coaching tasks and if he drops the ball saying that I will be PISSED is an understatement.
I really to have this baby last night because I would be coming home Sunday morning and so the problem would be solved. Well, that didn't happen. If I go into labor anytime between now and then he will be at the hospital with me. If I'm not in labor I don't care if the game is on. Let me be clear on that. But if I'm in pain it will not be on in my room. End of story.
So wish me good luck that I either go into labor before or after the stupid Superbowl. Anything besides that time will be ok with me.
Praying all day long for that not to happen!
Yesterday I officially lost my mucus plug. Let me warn you, if you have a weak stomach you don't want to hear about a mucus plug. it is the single most discusting thing that will ever exit your vagina. It is exactly what it sounds like. Made of mucus that plugs your cervix. It's gross.
The exciting part is that when you lose it it means that labor is coming soon. It can range from a few hours to weeks before labor starts but the important thing is that labor IS coming. Your body goes through a few different stages when leading up to going into labor.
1. braxton hicks contractions - these can start as early as 15-20 weeks and you literally just get to put up with them as they are nothing more than practice contractions.
2. baby dropping - baby goes from floating peacefully in your uterus to being engaged in your pelvis. The baby eventually has to exit through your pelvis so in preparation it sort of gets their head stuck in your pelvis. This is good and bad. The good thing is your heartburn gets better and you can breathe easier. The bad thing is you are now peeing every 15 minutes again. There isn't any room for urine in your bladder anymore.
3. loss of your mucus plug - this is the single most discusting thing that will exit your vagina, and I should know I've given birth twice now. You get to wipe after going to the bathroom for the 30th time that day and here it is on your toilet paper. Ummmm, gross.
4. dilation - some women will start to dilate days or even weeks before they go into labor. It is more common for women who are on at least pregnancy #2 + to start to dilate before labor.
These are some of the signs of early labor. You can have 1 or 2 of these signs or none at all. There is no rhyme or reason to labor and what gets it started. I so far have exhibited all of these and yet true labor has yet to set in. I lost the mucus plug yesterday and my water still hasn't broken, true contractions have yet to start.
While technically it is easier to take care of the baby before birth it is tiring. No one can help with her. I don't get to set her down for a minute. I can't take a shower by myself. You are on baby duty 100% of the time. Once she is born I will be able to set her down or give her to Jason to hold while I do the dishes. I will be able to shave my legs, see my own vagina, and put shoes on without having to hold my breath. There is an approx. 7 lb baby sitting on my bladder and I am doing nothing but praying that she decides to make her exit sooner rather than later.
So my plan for the day is to get caught up on my dishes (they have been piling up), clean and vacuum my living room. Maybe sort the clean laundry (that might be a stretch but we'll see). My goal is to get some contractions started and see if it jump starts anything.
So wish me luck in the labor starting process. Hopefully I wont be able to blog for a few days because I will be in the hospital.
Speaking of being in the hospital... Sunday is the Superbowl and the Packers are playing in it. My wonderful, amazing husband says that he will be watching the game and it doesn't matter if I'm in labor or not. I told him that there will not be a football game on while I'm in labor and if he wants to watch he will be doing so in the waiting room. If he decides that this football game is more important than the birth of our last child he will be sleeping on the couch for months. It will be unforgivable. We have DVR for a reason. He will be able to watch it when he gets home. I really want to not be in labor while the game is on so that I don't have to have that memory burned into my brain. He doesn't seem to realize that I have gone through 9+ months of HELL to bring this child into the world and at the last stage of the process (the most painful part, mind you) I need him to be focused on me and anything that I may need. With the last two he pretty much just watched me be in pain, well this one I have given him coaching tasks and if he drops the ball saying that I will be PISSED is an understatement.
I really to have this baby last night because I would be coming home Sunday morning and so the problem would be solved. Well, that didn't happen. If I go into labor anytime between now and then he will be at the hospital with me. If I'm not in labor I don't care if the game is on. Let me be clear on that. But if I'm in pain it will not be on in my room. End of story.
So wish me good luck that I either go into labor before or after the stupid Superbowl. Anything besides that time will be ok with me.
Praying all day long for that not to happen!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Signs of Labor
Increase in BH contractions ------- check
Low back pain -------------- check
Loose stool --------------- check
Nesting ------------- check
Dilating -------------- check
Baby drops ------------- check
Ok, so I'm sitting here thinking that all these 'signs of labor' are literally being shoved in my face and I've decided that this baby isn't coming anytime soon and I'm just going to be miserable for the next 3 weeks! I kept figuring that this is the 3rd for me so these things should happen right before labor begins (like hours, not weeks).
Oh well, I guess we are on her time table and so I just get to wait!
Well, the waiting part sucks a big fatty!
I have 21 days, 504 hours, left and I have a feeling that filling those days and hours are going to be rather hard. This week we are kind of busy though so hopefully that will help.
Sunday Fun Day: Church and dinner in Turtle Lake, like usual
Monday: Abby has Pre-school Playgroup
Tuesday: Daycare and OB appointment
Wednesday: Kate has pre-school assessment to see if she is progressing as she should.
Thursday: We have a meeting for Pre-school for Abby. We will find out all the details about sending our oldest child to school.
Friday: NOTHING
Saturday: NOTHING
So hopefully that means that this week will go by a little faster than usual. I keep saying that this little one is going to come at the most inopportune time. I really want to go to the meeting for pre-school on Thursday so I will probably still be in the hospital. i figure that we are supposed to have a snow storm Sunday night into Monday so that will be a good time to go into labor. No one will be able to come and watch the girls and it will be a big panic attack.
I keep saying that if I prepare too much for this child to come then she will just stay put in there and never come out. So there isn't any extra protection on the bed in case my water breaks there (it did the last 2 times). The car seat is not installed. Kate still needs to be put into the 'big girl' bed. Clothes aren't washed. I don't have any socks for this child. I don't have any fluffy blankets for her either. Just flannel receiving blankets.
I figure that whatever needs to be done can be done while we are still in the hospital. It's slightly mean to leave these details for Jason to take care of while I recover but I don't think I care! He will just be more appreciative when I get home from the hospital.
I told him that today would be the day that I go into labor because he was going snowmobiling and it would take him a few hours to get home from when I called him. Well, nothing happen today other than I got loose stools. TMI, yep but when you are pregnant you get to talk about gross things like mucus plugs, loose stool, leaking boobs, runny discharge, just to name a few. But I'll stop talking about those.
I'm just hoping that this little girl decides that she'd like to try things out here in the real world. Kate was almost 2 weeks early, Abby was a week early so if you do the math this one should be 3 weeks early! I think that is logical and should make perfect sense.
Oh, well. She'll be here eventually right? Every morning when I wake up still pregnant I've decided she will be in there for-ever!
Foooooorrrrrrrrr ------- eeeeeevvvvvveeeeeerrrrrrrr.............
Low back pain -------------- check
Loose stool --------------- check
Nesting ------------- check
Dilating -------------- check
Baby drops ------------- check
Ok, so I'm sitting here thinking that all these 'signs of labor' are literally being shoved in my face and I've decided that this baby isn't coming anytime soon and I'm just going to be miserable for the next 3 weeks! I kept figuring that this is the 3rd for me so these things should happen right before labor begins (like hours, not weeks).
Oh well, I guess we are on her time table and so I just get to wait!
Well, the waiting part sucks a big fatty!
I have 21 days, 504 hours, left and I have a feeling that filling those days and hours are going to be rather hard. This week we are kind of busy though so hopefully that will help.
Sunday Fun Day: Church and dinner in Turtle Lake, like usual
Monday: Abby has Pre-school Playgroup
Tuesday: Daycare and OB appointment
Wednesday: Kate has pre-school assessment to see if she is progressing as she should.
Thursday: We have a meeting for Pre-school for Abby. We will find out all the details about sending our oldest child to school.
Friday: NOTHING
Saturday: NOTHING
So hopefully that means that this week will go by a little faster than usual. I keep saying that this little one is going to come at the most inopportune time. I really want to go to the meeting for pre-school on Thursday so I will probably still be in the hospital. i figure that we are supposed to have a snow storm Sunday night into Monday so that will be a good time to go into labor. No one will be able to come and watch the girls and it will be a big panic attack.
I keep saying that if I prepare too much for this child to come then she will just stay put in there and never come out. So there isn't any extra protection on the bed in case my water breaks there (it did the last 2 times). The car seat is not installed. Kate still needs to be put into the 'big girl' bed. Clothes aren't washed. I don't have any socks for this child. I don't have any fluffy blankets for her either. Just flannel receiving blankets.
I figure that whatever needs to be done can be done while we are still in the hospital. It's slightly mean to leave these details for Jason to take care of while I recover but I don't think I care! He will just be more appreciative when I get home from the hospital.
I told him that today would be the day that I go into labor because he was going snowmobiling and it would take him a few hours to get home from when I called him. Well, nothing happen today other than I got loose stools. TMI, yep but when you are pregnant you get to talk about gross things like mucus plugs, loose stool, leaking boobs, runny discharge, just to name a few. But I'll stop talking about those.
I'm just hoping that this little girl decides that she'd like to try things out here in the real world. Kate was almost 2 weeks early, Abby was a week early so if you do the math this one should be 3 weeks early! I think that is logical and should make perfect sense.
Oh, well. She'll be here eventually right? Every morning when I wake up still pregnant I've decided she will be in there for-ever!
Foooooorrrrrrrrr ------- eeeeeevvvvvveeeeeerrrrrrrr.............
Friday, January 28, 2011
Okie Dokie
I've had a great couple of days. Yesterday I woke up with energy for the first time in weeks! I wanted to go to Barnes and Noble to find a case for my NOOKcolor. I got a hold of my mom and she needed to take my brothers laptop to Best Buy. So off we go! We had a great kid helping us at Best Buy who arranged to have Jeremy's laptop shipped to a Best Buy in Florida! Very helpful, and that is not usually what happens at Best Buy!
So then we went to Barnes and Noble. I found a really cute pink leather case for my NOOKcolor and found a baby book for the new baby. Got home, made dinner and had a good evening with my family.
This was way different than the couple of days before. I had an OB appointment on Tuesday and had a cervical check. So while cramps are normal after a cervical check, these lasted for over 18 hours and were painful but never turned into anything as I'm still pregnant.
Last night we are going to bed and Jason goes to turn the monitor off and the window sill that it sits on has got water all over it. Having no idea why it's wet we go to bed and figure we'll check it out tomorrow. I wake up and while checking my email... yes, my email... I have one from Jason. It says that the reason the window sill is wet is because we have an ice dam that has gotten so bad it is leaking through the window inside. Oh, by the way, can you call your dad and see if he will send a crew to steam it for free?
For those of you that know how my relationship is with my dad this wasn't going to happen. I have a really hard time asking anyone for help and the number one person that I cannot ask for help from is my dad. He wasn't around growing up and so it's hard to ask him for anything.
So I call Jason and after talking for a few minutes I tell him that I'm calling Jeremy, my brother, and asking him for advice. Is there anything that we can do DIY so that I don't have a $1000 steaming bill? After talking to Jeremy he tells me to salt the piss out of it. Yep, the piss out of it! Go buy the cheapest water softener salt and just dump it on and watch it melt the ice away! Then after this is done, fill an old nylon with salt and lay it on the roof and it will help keep ice dams from starting.
Well, last night I made Jason promise to sweep and mop the kitchen floor. I feel this need to get the house clean and the kitchen floor is where I need to start. With my SI joint separating sweeping and vacuuming cause me a ton of pain so Jason has had to pick up the slack for me. Well, now he has to spend his evening up on the roof fixing our ice dam problem. Well that doesn't fix the fact that to me I NEED the kitchen floor cleaned.
Well, welcome energy. I decide that the pain from my SI joint is less important than cleaning my house. So I pick up, sweep and mop the kitchen floor. You'd think that I would feel accomplished. Well, sitting on the couch taking a break I realize that I now need to clean the living room too. So we finish watching 'Bringing Baby Home' on TLC and down to the floor I go. I cannot bend over anymore so for me to clean the toys up I literally crawl on the floor throwing them into the toy bins. I got all of that done and decide that now I need to vacuum. Once that is all done I can now walk through half of my house (the parts we live in the most) and they are CLEAN!!!
NOW we can bring the baby home... wait what was that? Bring the baby home... ah, crap. I'm nesting. I've got the insatiable urge to clean and do laundry. If I could reach the bottom of the washer the laundry would be done too!
They say that nesting can occur right before you go into labor. Well, I can assure you that vacuuming causes contractions. I don't know if they will actually put me into labor but it's worth a try! At least you get a clean floor out of it!
Tomorrow I'm 37 weeks and according to the the medical world that is full term and the baby can come any time now and they wont stop labor!
So wish me labor pains!!!
So then we went to Barnes and Noble. I found a really cute pink leather case for my NOOKcolor and found a baby book for the new baby. Got home, made dinner and had a good evening with my family.
This was way different than the couple of days before. I had an OB appointment on Tuesday and had a cervical check. So while cramps are normal after a cervical check, these lasted for over 18 hours and were painful but never turned into anything as I'm still pregnant.
Last night we are going to bed and Jason goes to turn the monitor off and the window sill that it sits on has got water all over it. Having no idea why it's wet we go to bed and figure we'll check it out tomorrow. I wake up and while checking my email... yes, my email... I have one from Jason. It says that the reason the window sill is wet is because we have an ice dam that has gotten so bad it is leaking through the window inside. Oh, by the way, can you call your dad and see if he will send a crew to steam it for free?
For those of you that know how my relationship is with my dad this wasn't going to happen. I have a really hard time asking anyone for help and the number one person that I cannot ask for help from is my dad. He wasn't around growing up and so it's hard to ask him for anything.
So I call Jason and after talking for a few minutes I tell him that I'm calling Jeremy, my brother, and asking him for advice. Is there anything that we can do DIY so that I don't have a $1000 steaming bill? After talking to Jeremy he tells me to salt the piss out of it. Yep, the piss out of it! Go buy the cheapest water softener salt and just dump it on and watch it melt the ice away! Then after this is done, fill an old nylon with salt and lay it on the roof and it will help keep ice dams from starting.
Well, last night I made Jason promise to sweep and mop the kitchen floor. I feel this need to get the house clean and the kitchen floor is where I need to start. With my SI joint separating sweeping and vacuuming cause me a ton of pain so Jason has had to pick up the slack for me. Well, now he has to spend his evening up on the roof fixing our ice dam problem. Well that doesn't fix the fact that to me I NEED the kitchen floor cleaned.
Well, welcome energy. I decide that the pain from my SI joint is less important than cleaning my house. So I pick up, sweep and mop the kitchen floor. You'd think that I would feel accomplished. Well, sitting on the couch taking a break I realize that I now need to clean the living room too. So we finish watching 'Bringing Baby Home' on TLC and down to the floor I go. I cannot bend over anymore so for me to clean the toys up I literally crawl on the floor throwing them into the toy bins. I got all of that done and decide that now I need to vacuum. Once that is all done I can now walk through half of my house (the parts we live in the most) and they are CLEAN!!!
NOW we can bring the baby home... wait what was that? Bring the baby home... ah, crap. I'm nesting. I've got the insatiable urge to clean and do laundry. If I could reach the bottom of the washer the laundry would be done too!
They say that nesting can occur right before you go into labor. Well, I can assure you that vacuuming causes contractions. I don't know if they will actually put me into labor but it's worth a try! At least you get a clean floor out of it!
Tomorrow I'm 37 weeks and according to the the medical world that is full term and the baby can come any time now and they wont stop labor!
So wish me labor pains!!!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Only 9 more centimeters!
Yesterday I had my 36 week OB appointment. Since Dr. Rohr is on vacation in Hawaii I had to see Dr. Smith. She is another of the OB docs in Osceola and is great. It was a successful appointment. I found out that my Group B Strep test was negative. Group B Strep is something that mom's can carry without being aware of it but it can be deadly to that baby during delivery. If you test positive for it then you need to have antibiotics while in labor. Not a big deal but annoy for mom.
Secondly I got my Tubal paperwork signed so if I end up with a c-section they can perform the tubal at the same time. So that is taken care of.
Thirdly, Jason wants to go snowmobiling on Saturday and since he is going to be so far away I wanted Dr. Smith to check my cervix and see if there has been any change since last week. When Dr. Rohr checked it was still closed up tight. Well I've progressed to 1 cm! Jason still gets to go snowmobiling but the good news is that my body has started the process...
According to my mom that means there are only 9 more centimeters left to go before baby is here! It's not a matter of time anymore, just dilation! I like the way she thinks!
Last week the exam hurt, it was really uncomfortable to say the least. Well, after that I didn't have any cramps or contractions, which is very common after a cervical check. This week the exam was painless and I haven't stopped contracting since. It has been 24 hours and nothing I do will get them to stop. They aren't super painful, just mildly painful. They are different than my normal contractions though. They make be think of pre-labor contractions. The difference between these and my normal ones is that these wrap around from my back. That usually means that they are real contractions and are actually doing something. They aren't like transition contractions which are the most painful thing in the world but they are still painful.
So with that news I've just been waiting for my water to break. I'm hoping that it happens soon and that I get to meet this little one! I'm only 36 weeks 4 days but if she were to come now they wouldn't stop labor. But just in case I'm waiting until I know FOR SURE that this is labor before I go in.
When I was in labor with Kate I had pre-labor contractions the day before that were just like this. Then I went to bed and my water broke and she was born a few hours later!
So here's hoping that this is it! I'm keeping my fingers crossed but not going to cry if it all peters out either!
So wish me luck!
Secondly I got my Tubal paperwork signed so if I end up with a c-section they can perform the tubal at the same time. So that is taken care of.
Thirdly, Jason wants to go snowmobiling on Saturday and since he is going to be so far away I wanted Dr. Smith to check my cervix and see if there has been any change since last week. When Dr. Rohr checked it was still closed up tight. Well I've progressed to 1 cm! Jason still gets to go snowmobiling but the good news is that my body has started the process...
According to my mom that means there are only 9 more centimeters left to go before baby is here! It's not a matter of time anymore, just dilation! I like the way she thinks!
Last week the exam hurt, it was really uncomfortable to say the least. Well, after that I didn't have any cramps or contractions, which is very common after a cervical check. This week the exam was painless and I haven't stopped contracting since. It has been 24 hours and nothing I do will get them to stop. They aren't super painful, just mildly painful. They are different than my normal contractions though. They make be think of pre-labor contractions. The difference between these and my normal ones is that these wrap around from my back. That usually means that they are real contractions and are actually doing something. They aren't like transition contractions which are the most painful thing in the world but they are still painful.
So with that news I've just been waiting for my water to break. I'm hoping that it happens soon and that I get to meet this little one! I'm only 36 weeks 4 days but if she were to come now they wouldn't stop labor. But just in case I'm waiting until I know FOR SURE that this is labor before I go in.
When I was in labor with Kate I had pre-labor contractions the day before that were just like this. Then I went to bed and my water broke and she was born a few hours later!
So here's hoping that this is it! I'm keeping my fingers crossed but not going to cry if it all peters out either!
So wish me luck!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Oh man....
Well today is the big day that I can no longer say that I'm in my 20's. I've officially hit 30. While there wasn't any big trumpets or fireworks or anything going off today it was still a big deal to wake up and realize that I'm no longer in my 20's. I remember turning 20. Life was so much easier back then. It was exciting to leave your teens behind and become and 'adult'. How foolish were we to think that a number means that we are all grown up? I mean really? You go from being a 19 year old loser to a wise 20 year old overnight? What a load of crap! I think once I turned about 23 I realized that I really didn't know anything about life and that my mom was the best source of information ever! Now that I'm 30 I've realized that I still don't know crap about life but it's time to make something of myself. I spent my 20's getting married, getting divorced, getting remarried, having 3 kids (well almost finished on the third), graduating from college and overall just learning that I have a lot left to learn!
My kids are 2 and 4 and I've learned that as long as they have a house, clothes, food and love they will be taken care of. There are days where I have no idea what I'm doing and days where I feel like I've got it all figured out. There is very little middle ground there. Some days I feel like all I've done is yell and scream because no matter what I say they do not listen. Then the next day they will play quietly with their toys, without fighting, and take naps when supposed to. How does this change anything?
I've learned that I have a parenting style that leaves my kids with the opportunity to make decisions and learn from them all the while keeping them safe and healthy. Are there days were meals don't really happen and it feels like we live off crackers, dry cereal and granola bars? Yep. Then there are days when I make scrambled eggs from breakfast, sandwiches for lunch and pot roast for dinner.
It's all about balance.
If you don't try to balance out the good and the bad you will never be happy.
My motto for life is:
Anything in the extreme is bad.
This means that if ALL your kids eat is crackers and apple juice they are going to have growth problems. Now if you balance out snack of crackers and apple juice with milk and protein for meals then you are fine. If all you do is work and don't spend time with your family because you feel that you are better serving your family by bring home a good paycheck you are only partly right. If your kids never see you then you are out of balance. Any drug addict cannot find balance. Their life is totally focused on finding drugs, where the next high is coming from. There is no balance in that life style.
So my life lesson for the day...
FIND BALANCE!
On my other note I have the BEST family in the world! My mom and hubby spoiled me for my birthday. I've been craving Mexican food for weeks now and so we went to Tortilla's Mexican Restaurant in Lindstrom, MN for dinner on Saturday night. The food was good! While we were there I got to open my birthday present from Mom first, so I pull out of the gift bag a plug in for a NOOKcolor...
Wait, why would I need a plug in for a NOOKcolor unless inside that bag was a NOOKcolor...
Low and Behold... there is it! The epitome of my dreaming for the last 6 months. I've been dreaming (literally dreaming) of a NOOKcolor for months and here it is... in my now aged hands! I practically squealed in a restaurant full of people. I was so excited!!!
Next I got to open the card from Jason and here is $100 for accessories and books! Now I get to pick out a case for my NOOKcolor. What a challenge that is. I'm literally thinking of driving an hour to go to the nearest Barnes and Noble to touch the cases. I can't seem to make up my mind looking at them online. Who would have thought that picking out a case would be so hard!
So I get home and plug it in and it turns on! I get it registered and signed on to my wifi and I get to start playing! This thing is so incredibly fun!!! Reading books on it is great. There are games like chess, crossword and sudoku. I can search the web, go on facebook and babycenter and be totally free to do whatever I want to on it.
I'm literally in seventh heaven with my NOOKcolor! It is the BEST birthday present I've ever gotten and I will cherish it for a long time to come!
So now that I have my NOOKcolor I'm hoping that the next 26 days will fly by and the next big thing in my life will happen. I'm very anxious to meet this little girl and cannot wait for the big event to happen. So keep me in your thoughts and prayers! I can use any help you can give to get this baby out of me!!!
My kids are 2 and 4 and I've learned that as long as they have a house, clothes, food and love they will be taken care of. There are days where I have no idea what I'm doing and days where I feel like I've got it all figured out. There is very little middle ground there. Some days I feel like all I've done is yell and scream because no matter what I say they do not listen. Then the next day they will play quietly with their toys, without fighting, and take naps when supposed to. How does this change anything?
I've learned that I have a parenting style that leaves my kids with the opportunity to make decisions and learn from them all the while keeping them safe and healthy. Are there days were meals don't really happen and it feels like we live off crackers, dry cereal and granola bars? Yep. Then there are days when I make scrambled eggs from breakfast, sandwiches for lunch and pot roast for dinner.
It's all about balance.
If you don't try to balance out the good and the bad you will never be happy.
My motto for life is:
Anything in the extreme is bad.
This means that if ALL your kids eat is crackers and apple juice they are going to have growth problems. Now if you balance out snack of crackers and apple juice with milk and protein for meals then you are fine. If all you do is work and don't spend time with your family because you feel that you are better serving your family by bring home a good paycheck you are only partly right. If your kids never see you then you are out of balance. Any drug addict cannot find balance. Their life is totally focused on finding drugs, where the next high is coming from. There is no balance in that life style.
So my life lesson for the day...
FIND BALANCE!
On my other note I have the BEST family in the world! My mom and hubby spoiled me for my birthday. I've been craving Mexican food for weeks now and so we went to Tortilla's Mexican Restaurant in Lindstrom, MN for dinner on Saturday night. The food was good! While we were there I got to open my birthday present from Mom first, so I pull out of the gift bag a plug in for a NOOKcolor...
Wait, why would I need a plug in for a NOOKcolor unless inside that bag was a NOOKcolor...
Low and Behold... there is it! The epitome of my dreaming for the last 6 months. I've been dreaming (literally dreaming) of a NOOKcolor for months and here it is... in my now aged hands! I practically squealed in a restaurant full of people. I was so excited!!!
Next I got to open the card from Jason and here is $100 for accessories and books! Now I get to pick out a case for my NOOKcolor. What a challenge that is. I'm literally thinking of driving an hour to go to the nearest Barnes and Noble to touch the cases. I can't seem to make up my mind looking at them online. Who would have thought that picking out a case would be so hard!
So I get home and plug it in and it turns on! I get it registered and signed on to my wifi and I get to start playing! This thing is so incredibly fun!!! Reading books on it is great. There are games like chess, crossword and sudoku. I can search the web, go on facebook and babycenter and be totally free to do whatever I want to on it.
I'm literally in seventh heaven with my NOOKcolor! It is the BEST birthday present I've ever gotten and I will cherish it for a long time to come!
So now that I have my NOOKcolor I'm hoping that the next 26 days will fly by and the next big thing in my life will happen. I'm very anxious to meet this little girl and cannot wait for the big event to happen. So keep me in your thoughts and prayers! I can use any help you can give to get this baby out of me!!!
Friday, January 21, 2011
29 days, I can do 29 days.... right????? Ummmm.......
I met with the cardiologist today and he was great. He asked me a ton of questions and did and exam and everything. The results of the holter monitor were in and apparently though my heart races it's healthy. This is good news! He sent me to get some blood work to make sure I'm not having thyroid issues or am anemic and I have an ultrasound on Tuesday just to double check my heart can handle labor but otherwise I'm apparently just sensitive to a racing heart.
So the good news is that there is no damage being done to me or that baby, bad news is that I'm still pregnant! My OB is out of town this next week so I meet with another doc to do my weekly check and I'll find out if my Group B Strep test is positive or negative. I'm assuming that I wont know anything about being able to induce early until the following week. I'm thinking that the sub doc will not want to schedule an induction since she's not my normal doc. So I have to wait 10 more days to talk to my doc.
Because I'm pregnant I can't increase my meds because they will lower my blood pressure and then the baby wont get the nutrients and oxygen that it needs. So I literally get to suffer until delivery. That is why I will be talking to my doc about inducing early. I can't handle the racing heart everyday for the next month! It sucks!
So anyway, I figure I have at most 29 days left until this baby is born according to my due date. Abby was a week early and Kate was 9 days early so if I average them out to 8 days then I hopefully only have 21 days left. Not that long when you think about it but it seems like FOREVER!!! So in 10 days I will talk to my doc about inducing and see where we are at!
I want to say that I am married to the most amazing man in the world. He truly loves me and worries about my health more than I do. We make beautiful, amazing, adorable children. He supports us, and is responsible. He takes out the garbage every week, shovels all the snow, mows the grass and everything else that needs to be taken care of. He has done all of the vacuuming since I can no longer move like that. He knows what I have to go through to carry our children to term and is seriously concerned when anything starts to go differently. He just amazes me some days and I figured you all need to know that there are good guys out there, sometimes you just have to dig for them!
I think I'm going to go make a paper chain to count down the days... nope, not going to do that either. Going to sit on my ass here on the couch and watch TV and surf the web. Babycenter group boards are kind of boring today so I'll find something to occupy day #29...
So the good news is that there is no damage being done to me or that baby, bad news is that I'm still pregnant! My OB is out of town this next week so I meet with another doc to do my weekly check and I'll find out if my Group B Strep test is positive or negative. I'm assuming that I wont know anything about being able to induce early until the following week. I'm thinking that the sub doc will not want to schedule an induction since she's not my normal doc. So I have to wait 10 more days to talk to my doc.
Because I'm pregnant I can't increase my meds because they will lower my blood pressure and then the baby wont get the nutrients and oxygen that it needs. So I literally get to suffer until delivery. That is why I will be talking to my doc about inducing early. I can't handle the racing heart everyday for the next month! It sucks!
So anyway, I figure I have at most 29 days left until this baby is born according to my due date. Abby was a week early and Kate was 9 days early so if I average them out to 8 days then I hopefully only have 21 days left. Not that long when you think about it but it seems like FOREVER!!! So in 10 days I will talk to my doc about inducing and see where we are at!
I want to say that I am married to the most amazing man in the world. He truly loves me and worries about my health more than I do. We make beautiful, amazing, adorable children. He supports us, and is responsible. He takes out the garbage every week, shovels all the snow, mows the grass and everything else that needs to be taken care of. He has done all of the vacuuming since I can no longer move like that. He knows what I have to go through to carry our children to term and is seriously concerned when anything starts to go differently. He just amazes me some days and I figured you all need to know that there are good guys out there, sometimes you just have to dig for them!
I think I'm going to go make a paper chain to count down the days... nope, not going to do that either. Going to sit on my ass here on the couch and watch TV and surf the web. Babycenter group boards are kind of boring today so I'll find something to occupy day #29...
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Don't let life get you down!
Well, I'm still dealing with my heart acting up. I'm not sure what it is. My OB doc says it's not damaging my heart and the baby is fine. Well I don't feel fine! I feel like I've just run a marathon without getting off my couch! It's exhausting and I'm ready to be done with this pregnancy to see if this stuff continues on it's own or not. I see the cardiologist tomorrow morning and I'm hoping that Regions gets the report from my holter monitor back to her in time for my appointment. I'm going to ask her to track it down if she doesn't have it on the top of my file when she walks into the room. So I'm hoping for good news tomorrow. Good news would be this:
1. There is no lasting damage done to your heart, it is simply the strain of being pregnant and you will be 100% fine.
2. In order for your heart to stop being stressed you need to deliver this baby sooner rather than later. YaY!
3. In the 6 weeks after you give birth you should have no episodes and will not have to continue to take the heart medication.
Ok, so that probably isn't going to happen, at least #2 probably wont. I'm preparing for another 4 weeks and 2 days of being pregnant. I want my baby to be healthy but I also don't want to have a heart condition for the rest of my life either! It's pretty hard to decide which is worse! Deliver baby early or have a lasting condition that will forever affect how I can live my life? I'm hoping that the cardiologist will be able to answer some of these questions for me tomorrow.
For those of you that haven't been talking to me recently this is what I feel when I have an episode:
1. My heart beat increases
2. I start to breathe faster
3. My chest gets tight
4. I get light-headed which leads into full on dizziness if I don't get control quick enough
5. My ears stop working. I can barely hear anything because of the lack of blood pumping through my body and to my brain.
6. I get shaky
7. I get nauseous
8. I am exhausted.
These happen at almost every episode, but not always in that order. These episodes last anywhere from 15 minutes to 4 hours. Try taking care of your children when you can't hear what they are saying to you. Rather difficult my friend. I've had this with the other two pregnancies as well but the heart medication has always kept it under control with very few break-through episodes happening. Well this time none of the 3 different heart meds that I've been on this week have done anything to keep it under control.
So I'm hoping that the cardiologist has the magic answer tomorrow and everything will be perfect!
On a side note:
I'm turning the big 3-0 on Monday. What! No way you say! You can't possibly be that old. Well, my friends, that is exactly how old I'm going to be.
I've started thinking about which face creams I will have to apply daily so that this ancient face doesn't fall right off my bones. Did you know there are like millions of them out there? How in the world do you chose? How do you know what you need to look for? Alpha-hydroxy, green tea extracts... blah blah blah.... It's the most confusing decision I think I've had to ponder in a long long time. Which college to go to was easier than this! It's crazy and makes my head spin! So with crazy pregnancy hormones I'm supposed to decide which magical cream is going to keep me from looking like the crypt keeper in five years? Ha! Not going to happen my dear friend, not going to happen! I think I'm going to take my chances and wait until my face actually starts to shrivel up, then I will get serious!
Another side note:
I really want an e-reader! I keep hoping that my wonderful husband will surprise me with one for my birthday but I don't think that we can afford one right now and while I totally understand it still sucks! I really want the NOOKcolor but I can't figure out how to come up with $249 for a machine to read books that I can get from the library for free? Did you know that there are like millions and millions of ebooks out there fore free? Or even as little as $.99?!!?!?! Talk about crazy!
I was talking with my mom the other day about how much the revolution of ebooks is going to save the planet. Can you imagine how many trees are going to be saved because they don't need paper to make a book? Think about the manufacturing pollution that will not be needed anymore because instead of a factory making books it will be a group of people sitting in an office, working on their computer, to publish these books. I'm sure that the editing cost will go up because someone is going to have to sit there and make sure that they are in the right format for publishing electronically and such. However there will be a loss of job in those factories for the people who are standing there working the machines that create books. The great thing is that even though there will be less books made there will still be books made! Not everyone can afford an e-reader and as such they will still be purchasing regular old books!
I started out thinking I would never want an electronic form to hold all of my books. Then I realized that there are so many more books available to me in the virtual world that my library will never be able to accommodate my reading habit to the fullest. So I've decided that an e-reader would be amazing and that I will gladly take one from any method I can secure one from!
So for all of you out there that have a ereader that is simply collecting dust on a shelf. Please email me and I will forward you may address so that you may send me my birthday present. If you don't happen to have a spare one lying around then you can send donations to me for the purchase of a new one. Rest assured that it will be well loved and taken care of. At least you aren't making donations for some bimbo to get a boob jog. This will continue to educate me and I will be a better person for it. Not simply a bigger breasted one...
1. There is no lasting damage done to your heart, it is simply the strain of being pregnant and you will be 100% fine.
2. In order for your heart to stop being stressed you need to deliver this baby sooner rather than later. YaY!
3. In the 6 weeks after you give birth you should have no episodes and will not have to continue to take the heart medication.
Ok, so that probably isn't going to happen, at least #2 probably wont. I'm preparing for another 4 weeks and 2 days of being pregnant. I want my baby to be healthy but I also don't want to have a heart condition for the rest of my life either! It's pretty hard to decide which is worse! Deliver baby early or have a lasting condition that will forever affect how I can live my life? I'm hoping that the cardiologist will be able to answer some of these questions for me tomorrow.
For those of you that haven't been talking to me recently this is what I feel when I have an episode:
1. My heart beat increases
2. I start to breathe faster
3. My chest gets tight
4. I get light-headed which leads into full on dizziness if I don't get control quick enough
5. My ears stop working. I can barely hear anything because of the lack of blood pumping through my body and to my brain.
6. I get shaky
7. I get nauseous
8. I am exhausted.
These happen at almost every episode, but not always in that order. These episodes last anywhere from 15 minutes to 4 hours. Try taking care of your children when you can't hear what they are saying to you. Rather difficult my friend. I've had this with the other two pregnancies as well but the heart medication has always kept it under control with very few break-through episodes happening. Well this time none of the 3 different heart meds that I've been on this week have done anything to keep it under control.
So I'm hoping that the cardiologist has the magic answer tomorrow and everything will be perfect!
On a side note:
I'm turning the big 3-0 on Monday. What! No way you say! You can't possibly be that old. Well, my friends, that is exactly how old I'm going to be.
I've started thinking about which face creams I will have to apply daily so that this ancient face doesn't fall right off my bones. Did you know there are like millions of them out there? How in the world do you chose? How do you know what you need to look for? Alpha-hydroxy, green tea extracts... blah blah blah.... It's the most confusing decision I think I've had to ponder in a long long time. Which college to go to was easier than this! It's crazy and makes my head spin! So with crazy pregnancy hormones I'm supposed to decide which magical cream is going to keep me from looking like the crypt keeper in five years? Ha! Not going to happen my dear friend, not going to happen! I think I'm going to take my chances and wait until my face actually starts to shrivel up, then I will get serious!
Another side note:
I really want an e-reader! I keep hoping that my wonderful husband will surprise me with one for my birthday but I don't think that we can afford one right now and while I totally understand it still sucks! I really want the NOOKcolor but I can't figure out how to come up with $249 for a machine to read books that I can get from the library for free? Did you know that there are like millions and millions of ebooks out there fore free? Or even as little as $.99?!!?!?! Talk about crazy!
I was talking with my mom the other day about how much the revolution of ebooks is going to save the planet. Can you imagine how many trees are going to be saved because they don't need paper to make a book? Think about the manufacturing pollution that will not be needed anymore because instead of a factory making books it will be a group of people sitting in an office, working on their computer, to publish these books. I'm sure that the editing cost will go up because someone is going to have to sit there and make sure that they are in the right format for publishing electronically and such. However there will be a loss of job in those factories for the people who are standing there working the machines that create books. The great thing is that even though there will be less books made there will still be books made! Not everyone can afford an e-reader and as such they will still be purchasing regular old books!
I started out thinking I would never want an electronic form to hold all of my books. Then I realized that there are so many more books available to me in the virtual world that my library will never be able to accommodate my reading habit to the fullest. So I've decided that an e-reader would be amazing and that I will gladly take one from any method I can secure one from!
So for all of you out there that have a ereader that is simply collecting dust on a shelf. Please email me and I will forward you may address so that you may send me my birthday present. If you don't happen to have a spare one lying around then you can send donations to me for the purchase of a new one. Rest assured that it will be well loved and taken care of. At least you aren't making donations for some bimbo to get a boob jog. This will continue to educate me and I will be a better person for it. Not simply a bigger breasted one...
Friday, January 14, 2011
Holy Heart Batman!
So we all know that I'm pregnant... and now you get to listen to my latest worry/complaint. Well I'm 35 weeks tomorrow. I've suffered from Hyperemesis and Tachycardia in addition to the normal pregnancy complaints. So I feel like a whale, my back hurts, but vagina is being ripped from my body, heartburn, mild water retention, just to name a few.
For the last few weeks my heart hasn't been cooperating with me. I've been on medication to keep it under control since about 10-12 weeks and it has worked with all three of my pregnancies so far until delivery. Once baby is out everything goes away. I stop hurting, my heart stops racing, I stop wanting to throw up every second...
For the last month the medication for my heart hasn't been working that well. So I talk to my doc and she says lets increase your meds and see if that helps. Well for a few days nothing, no improvement. Then for a few days the episodes are a little better... I think YAY!!! It's going to work! Then yesterday hits. I have the WORST episode that I've ever had since going on medication with my first pregnancy. So I finally get home and call my doc and leave her a message. She calls me back later that night and says that if it happens again or doesn't get better then she wants me to go in and get checked out. She's talking about hooking me up to a Halter (sp?) monitor again to see what my heart is doing.
So I wake up today and my heart is still working too hard. I talk to Jason and he says just call and make an appointment. So I get an appointment with another doctor who is familiar with my 'issues' for later this afternoon. All the while I'm sitting here feeling like I'm running a marathon without leaving my couch.
Here's my issue. This heart thing FREAKS me out!!! How do I know that it isn't creating damage that I will deal with for the rest of my life? Is it safe for the baby at this point? How do we know? I'm 35 weeks, 36 is considered full term. Why can't we just deliver the baby so that everybody is safe? I'm willing to wait until she decides to come on her own if it's safe for everyone. I'm freaking out that I'm going to have a heart attack or something. I have a friend who had some heart problems while she was pregnant and they found out that her heart was only working at 25%!!!
Why do we have to go through all these tests when we are so close to the end? I know I want to meet my little girl and I want her to be healthy and safe but jeez, this is crazy! This is my last pregnancy, I plan to get my tubes tied after this is all over with too. I can't deal with this again and so I will be giving up on my dream of having a son. My pregnancy is THAT bad. I will refuse to have anymore children because my body and mind can't handle being pregnant, so why can't we just be done with it already!
So I know this is basically a bitch blog post but I don't know who else will listen to me. Jason understands because he deals with it everyday. My Mom understands because she worries about me. Things that are messing with your heart just aren't to be taken lightly. So what do you think that the doc is going to say this afternoon? More than likely there will be little done, I might be put on the monitor for a few days but I will be told to wait until I go into labor and then everything will be alright. How do I impress on her the stress and worry that this is causing? It's so frustrating. I know there is something wrong but I don't know how to express my concern.
Well, keep your fingers crossed that the appointment goes well and that I get some answers that are satisfactory!!!
Thanks for listening to me complain and vent my worries. Cyber-space is the perfect place for this type of stuff!
For the last few weeks my heart hasn't been cooperating with me. I've been on medication to keep it under control since about 10-12 weeks and it has worked with all three of my pregnancies so far until delivery. Once baby is out everything goes away. I stop hurting, my heart stops racing, I stop wanting to throw up every second...
For the last month the medication for my heart hasn't been working that well. So I talk to my doc and she says lets increase your meds and see if that helps. Well for a few days nothing, no improvement. Then for a few days the episodes are a little better... I think YAY!!! It's going to work! Then yesterday hits. I have the WORST episode that I've ever had since going on medication with my first pregnancy. So I finally get home and call my doc and leave her a message. She calls me back later that night and says that if it happens again or doesn't get better then she wants me to go in and get checked out. She's talking about hooking me up to a Halter (sp?) monitor again to see what my heart is doing.
So I wake up today and my heart is still working too hard. I talk to Jason and he says just call and make an appointment. So I get an appointment with another doctor who is familiar with my 'issues' for later this afternoon. All the while I'm sitting here feeling like I'm running a marathon without leaving my couch.
Here's my issue. This heart thing FREAKS me out!!! How do I know that it isn't creating damage that I will deal with for the rest of my life? Is it safe for the baby at this point? How do we know? I'm 35 weeks, 36 is considered full term. Why can't we just deliver the baby so that everybody is safe? I'm willing to wait until she decides to come on her own if it's safe for everyone. I'm freaking out that I'm going to have a heart attack or something. I have a friend who had some heart problems while she was pregnant and they found out that her heart was only working at 25%!!!
Why do we have to go through all these tests when we are so close to the end? I know I want to meet my little girl and I want her to be healthy and safe but jeez, this is crazy! This is my last pregnancy, I plan to get my tubes tied after this is all over with too. I can't deal with this again and so I will be giving up on my dream of having a son. My pregnancy is THAT bad. I will refuse to have anymore children because my body and mind can't handle being pregnant, so why can't we just be done with it already!
So I know this is basically a bitch blog post but I don't know who else will listen to me. Jason understands because he deals with it everyday. My Mom understands because she worries about me. Things that are messing with your heart just aren't to be taken lightly. So what do you think that the doc is going to say this afternoon? More than likely there will be little done, I might be put on the monitor for a few days but I will be told to wait until I go into labor and then everything will be alright. How do I impress on her the stress and worry that this is causing? It's so frustrating. I know there is something wrong but I don't know how to express my concern.
Well, keep your fingers crossed that the appointment goes well and that I get some answers that are satisfactory!!!
Thanks for listening to me complain and vent my worries. Cyber-space is the perfect place for this type of stuff!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Most Expensive Bananas Ever!
I haven't blogged in awhile just cause I haven't had anything really to say. Christmas was good, the week after was busy. I feel like I'm just waiting on this baby to come now and it's going to take forever. I'm due February 19th, 2011 and that leaves me with exactly 43 days until then. I realize that not all babies come on their due date (in fact I think it's only like 5%) and I've yet to make it to my due date with the other two girls. Abby was 7 days early and Kate was 9 days early. So if I average them I should have this baby by the 11th at the latest.
Wishful thinking I know. Between now and then I'm going to be turning 30 and because I'm preggo I wont even be able to drown my sorrows. Did you realize that every face cream, anti-aging cream and wrinkle cream commercial talks about women over the age of 30 should be using these creams. 30?!?!?!?!?! Really, since when is that old? Like once I hit the magical big 3-0 my face is going to fall into my neck? While when I look at my hands and they do look older than when I was 20 I imagine that they should. After all in the last 10 years I was married, divorced, remarried and am having my third child. A lot has happened in the last decade and so I should look wiser for the life I've led. Not everything has been easy and so I should look like life has happened. How do you pick and choose which creams you need?
I don't have wrinkles, gray hair or dry skin. I'm hoping to lose the baby weight quickly and maybe I'll have some wrinkles after that but I don't think stretch marks on my belly are considered wrinkle and Oil of Olay isn't going to fix those.
Talking to my mom yesterday I told her about the creams age limit and she just laughed. She is 52 and a young 52 at that. She just said at least you don't have to take senior vitamins. Apparently society has deemed 30 and 50 as the age markers for women. Once you are 50 your body need different vitamins and the retards call them the senior or silver vitamins. My mom is the farthest thing from a senior citizen and it sucks that because of a number she has to buy vitamins with this label on them. What is society doing to our self worth?
My mom is awesome. She knows that we are broke with it being winter and so yesterday we went shopping for the new baby. I went through my clothes for this new little one and she doesn't have any, I mean NO newborn clothes. I found one lightweight sleeper and a t-shirt. So I decided that since I had some extra money I would go shopping to try to get some sleepers and the misc. crap that I need for her. So we went to the outlet mall and shopped at Carter's and got some really cute sleepers and outfits for her to wear that will be warm. Well, Mom wouldn't let me pay for them. So I figured that was OK. We then went to Target so I could buy her some diapers, new nipples for the bottles, Evening Primrose Oil, breast pads and other such misc items. Well, Mom added Bananas to the cart. Then proceeded to cut me off in the check out line and pay for those as well. Once we got home she walks away with bananas and I walk away with 4 bags worth of clothes and such for my children. Those were the most expensive bananas I've ever seen.
My mom is the best. She is not only my best friend and I can talk to her about anything, she takes care of me, loves my children, doesn't tell me how to raise my children, and over all is one of the most amazing people that I have ever met. I only can hope that there are other people out there who are lucky enough to have a mother like I do. I can only aspire to be a mother like her someday.
Thank you for being my mom, Mom!!!
Wishful thinking I know. Between now and then I'm going to be turning 30 and because I'm preggo I wont even be able to drown my sorrows. Did you realize that every face cream, anti-aging cream and wrinkle cream commercial talks about women over the age of 30 should be using these creams. 30?!?!?!?!?! Really, since when is that old? Like once I hit the magical big 3-0 my face is going to fall into my neck? While when I look at my hands and they do look older than when I was 20 I imagine that they should. After all in the last 10 years I was married, divorced, remarried and am having my third child. A lot has happened in the last decade and so I should look wiser for the life I've led. Not everything has been easy and so I should look like life has happened. How do you pick and choose which creams you need?
I don't have wrinkles, gray hair or dry skin. I'm hoping to lose the baby weight quickly and maybe I'll have some wrinkles after that but I don't think stretch marks on my belly are considered wrinkle and Oil of Olay isn't going to fix those.
Talking to my mom yesterday I told her about the creams age limit and she just laughed. She is 52 and a young 52 at that. She just said at least you don't have to take senior vitamins. Apparently society has deemed 30 and 50 as the age markers for women. Once you are 50 your body need different vitamins and the retards call them the senior or silver vitamins. My mom is the farthest thing from a senior citizen and it sucks that because of a number she has to buy vitamins with this label on them. What is society doing to our self worth?
My mom is awesome. She knows that we are broke with it being winter and so yesterday we went shopping for the new baby. I went through my clothes for this new little one and she doesn't have any, I mean NO newborn clothes. I found one lightweight sleeper and a t-shirt. So I decided that since I had some extra money I would go shopping to try to get some sleepers and the misc. crap that I need for her. So we went to the outlet mall and shopped at Carter's and got some really cute sleepers and outfits for her to wear that will be warm. Well, Mom wouldn't let me pay for them. So I figured that was OK. We then went to Target so I could buy her some diapers, new nipples for the bottles, Evening Primrose Oil, breast pads and other such misc items. Well, Mom added Bananas to the cart. Then proceeded to cut me off in the check out line and pay for those as well. Once we got home she walks away with bananas and I walk away with 4 bags worth of clothes and such for my children. Those were the most expensive bananas I've ever seen.
My mom is the best. She is not only my best friend and I can talk to her about anything, she takes care of me, loves my children, doesn't tell me how to raise my children, and over all is one of the most amazing people that I have ever met. I only can hope that there are other people out there who are lucky enough to have a mother like I do. I can only aspire to be a mother like her someday.
Thank you for being my mom, Mom!!!
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