Increase in BH contractions ------- check
Low back pain -------------- check
Loose stool --------------- check
Nesting ------------- check
Dilating -------------- check
Baby drops ------------- check
Ok, so I'm sitting here thinking that all these 'signs of labor' are literally being shoved in my face and I've decided that this baby isn't coming anytime soon and I'm just going to be miserable for the next 3 weeks! I kept figuring that this is the 3rd for me so these things should happen right before labor begins (like hours, not weeks).
Oh well, I guess we are on her time table and so I just get to wait!
Well, the waiting part sucks a big fatty!
I have 21 days, 504 hours, left and I have a feeling that filling those days and hours are going to be rather hard. This week we are kind of busy though so hopefully that will help.
Sunday Fun Day: Church and dinner in Turtle Lake, like usual
Monday: Abby has Pre-school Playgroup
Tuesday: Daycare and OB appointment
Wednesday: Kate has pre-school assessment to see if she is progressing as she should.
Thursday: We have a meeting for Pre-school for Abby. We will find out all the details about sending our oldest child to school.
Friday: NOTHING
Saturday: NOTHING
So hopefully that means that this week will go by a little faster than usual. I keep saying that this little one is going to come at the most inopportune time. I really want to go to the meeting for pre-school on Thursday so I will probably still be in the hospital. i figure that we are supposed to have a snow storm Sunday night into Monday so that will be a good time to go into labor. No one will be able to come and watch the girls and it will be a big panic attack.
I keep saying that if I prepare too much for this child to come then she will just stay put in there and never come out. So there isn't any extra protection on the bed in case my water breaks there (it did the last 2 times). The car seat is not installed. Kate still needs to be put into the 'big girl' bed. Clothes aren't washed. I don't have any socks for this child. I don't have any fluffy blankets for her either. Just flannel receiving blankets.
I figure that whatever needs to be done can be done while we are still in the hospital. It's slightly mean to leave these details for Jason to take care of while I recover but I don't think I care! He will just be more appreciative when I get home from the hospital.
I told him that today would be the day that I go into labor because he was going snowmobiling and it would take him a few hours to get home from when I called him. Well, nothing happen today other than I got loose stools. TMI, yep but when you are pregnant you get to talk about gross things like mucus plugs, loose stool, leaking boobs, runny discharge, just to name a few. But I'll stop talking about those.
I'm just hoping that this little girl decides that she'd like to try things out here in the real world. Kate was almost 2 weeks early, Abby was a week early so if you do the math this one should be 3 weeks early! I think that is logical and should make perfect sense.
Oh, well. She'll be here eventually right? Every morning when I wake up still pregnant I've decided she will be in there for-ever!
Foooooorrrrrrrrr ------- eeeeeevvvvvveeeeeerrrrrrrr.............
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Okie Dokie
I've had a great couple of days. Yesterday I woke up with energy for the first time in weeks! I wanted to go to Barnes and Noble to find a case for my NOOKcolor. I got a hold of my mom and she needed to take my brothers laptop to Best Buy. So off we go! We had a great kid helping us at Best Buy who arranged to have Jeremy's laptop shipped to a Best Buy in Florida! Very helpful, and that is not usually what happens at Best Buy!
So then we went to Barnes and Noble. I found a really cute pink leather case for my NOOKcolor and found a baby book for the new baby. Got home, made dinner and had a good evening with my family.
This was way different than the couple of days before. I had an OB appointment on Tuesday and had a cervical check. So while cramps are normal after a cervical check, these lasted for over 18 hours and were painful but never turned into anything as I'm still pregnant.
Last night we are going to bed and Jason goes to turn the monitor off and the window sill that it sits on has got water all over it. Having no idea why it's wet we go to bed and figure we'll check it out tomorrow. I wake up and while checking my email... yes, my email... I have one from Jason. It says that the reason the window sill is wet is because we have an ice dam that has gotten so bad it is leaking through the window inside. Oh, by the way, can you call your dad and see if he will send a crew to steam it for free?
For those of you that know how my relationship is with my dad this wasn't going to happen. I have a really hard time asking anyone for help and the number one person that I cannot ask for help from is my dad. He wasn't around growing up and so it's hard to ask him for anything.
So I call Jason and after talking for a few minutes I tell him that I'm calling Jeremy, my brother, and asking him for advice. Is there anything that we can do DIY so that I don't have a $1000 steaming bill? After talking to Jeremy he tells me to salt the piss out of it. Yep, the piss out of it! Go buy the cheapest water softener salt and just dump it on and watch it melt the ice away! Then after this is done, fill an old nylon with salt and lay it on the roof and it will help keep ice dams from starting.
Well, last night I made Jason promise to sweep and mop the kitchen floor. I feel this need to get the house clean and the kitchen floor is where I need to start. With my SI joint separating sweeping and vacuuming cause me a ton of pain so Jason has had to pick up the slack for me. Well, now he has to spend his evening up on the roof fixing our ice dam problem. Well that doesn't fix the fact that to me I NEED the kitchen floor cleaned.
Well, welcome energy. I decide that the pain from my SI joint is less important than cleaning my house. So I pick up, sweep and mop the kitchen floor. You'd think that I would feel accomplished. Well, sitting on the couch taking a break I realize that I now need to clean the living room too. So we finish watching 'Bringing Baby Home' on TLC and down to the floor I go. I cannot bend over anymore so for me to clean the toys up I literally crawl on the floor throwing them into the toy bins. I got all of that done and decide that now I need to vacuum. Once that is all done I can now walk through half of my house (the parts we live in the most) and they are CLEAN!!!
NOW we can bring the baby home... wait what was that? Bring the baby home... ah, crap. I'm nesting. I've got the insatiable urge to clean and do laundry. If I could reach the bottom of the washer the laundry would be done too!
They say that nesting can occur right before you go into labor. Well, I can assure you that vacuuming causes contractions. I don't know if they will actually put me into labor but it's worth a try! At least you get a clean floor out of it!
Tomorrow I'm 37 weeks and according to the the medical world that is full term and the baby can come any time now and they wont stop labor!
So wish me labor pains!!!
So then we went to Barnes and Noble. I found a really cute pink leather case for my NOOKcolor and found a baby book for the new baby. Got home, made dinner and had a good evening with my family.
This was way different than the couple of days before. I had an OB appointment on Tuesday and had a cervical check. So while cramps are normal after a cervical check, these lasted for over 18 hours and were painful but never turned into anything as I'm still pregnant.
Last night we are going to bed and Jason goes to turn the monitor off and the window sill that it sits on has got water all over it. Having no idea why it's wet we go to bed and figure we'll check it out tomorrow. I wake up and while checking my email... yes, my email... I have one from Jason. It says that the reason the window sill is wet is because we have an ice dam that has gotten so bad it is leaking through the window inside. Oh, by the way, can you call your dad and see if he will send a crew to steam it for free?
For those of you that know how my relationship is with my dad this wasn't going to happen. I have a really hard time asking anyone for help and the number one person that I cannot ask for help from is my dad. He wasn't around growing up and so it's hard to ask him for anything.
So I call Jason and after talking for a few minutes I tell him that I'm calling Jeremy, my brother, and asking him for advice. Is there anything that we can do DIY so that I don't have a $1000 steaming bill? After talking to Jeremy he tells me to salt the piss out of it. Yep, the piss out of it! Go buy the cheapest water softener salt and just dump it on and watch it melt the ice away! Then after this is done, fill an old nylon with salt and lay it on the roof and it will help keep ice dams from starting.
Well, last night I made Jason promise to sweep and mop the kitchen floor. I feel this need to get the house clean and the kitchen floor is where I need to start. With my SI joint separating sweeping and vacuuming cause me a ton of pain so Jason has had to pick up the slack for me. Well, now he has to spend his evening up on the roof fixing our ice dam problem. Well that doesn't fix the fact that to me I NEED the kitchen floor cleaned.
Well, welcome energy. I decide that the pain from my SI joint is less important than cleaning my house. So I pick up, sweep and mop the kitchen floor. You'd think that I would feel accomplished. Well, sitting on the couch taking a break I realize that I now need to clean the living room too. So we finish watching 'Bringing Baby Home' on TLC and down to the floor I go. I cannot bend over anymore so for me to clean the toys up I literally crawl on the floor throwing them into the toy bins. I got all of that done and decide that now I need to vacuum. Once that is all done I can now walk through half of my house (the parts we live in the most) and they are CLEAN!!!
NOW we can bring the baby home... wait what was that? Bring the baby home... ah, crap. I'm nesting. I've got the insatiable urge to clean and do laundry. If I could reach the bottom of the washer the laundry would be done too!
They say that nesting can occur right before you go into labor. Well, I can assure you that vacuuming causes contractions. I don't know if they will actually put me into labor but it's worth a try! At least you get a clean floor out of it!
Tomorrow I'm 37 weeks and according to the the medical world that is full term and the baby can come any time now and they wont stop labor!
So wish me labor pains!!!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Only 9 more centimeters!
Yesterday I had my 36 week OB appointment. Since Dr. Rohr is on vacation in Hawaii I had to see Dr. Smith. She is another of the OB docs in Osceola and is great. It was a successful appointment. I found out that my Group B Strep test was negative. Group B Strep is something that mom's can carry without being aware of it but it can be deadly to that baby during delivery. If you test positive for it then you need to have antibiotics while in labor. Not a big deal but annoy for mom.
Secondly I got my Tubal paperwork signed so if I end up with a c-section they can perform the tubal at the same time. So that is taken care of.
Thirdly, Jason wants to go snowmobiling on Saturday and since he is going to be so far away I wanted Dr. Smith to check my cervix and see if there has been any change since last week. When Dr. Rohr checked it was still closed up tight. Well I've progressed to 1 cm! Jason still gets to go snowmobiling but the good news is that my body has started the process...
According to my mom that means there are only 9 more centimeters left to go before baby is here! It's not a matter of time anymore, just dilation! I like the way she thinks!
Last week the exam hurt, it was really uncomfortable to say the least. Well, after that I didn't have any cramps or contractions, which is very common after a cervical check. This week the exam was painless and I haven't stopped contracting since. It has been 24 hours and nothing I do will get them to stop. They aren't super painful, just mildly painful. They are different than my normal contractions though. They make be think of pre-labor contractions. The difference between these and my normal ones is that these wrap around from my back. That usually means that they are real contractions and are actually doing something. They aren't like transition contractions which are the most painful thing in the world but they are still painful.
So with that news I've just been waiting for my water to break. I'm hoping that it happens soon and that I get to meet this little one! I'm only 36 weeks 4 days but if she were to come now they wouldn't stop labor. But just in case I'm waiting until I know FOR SURE that this is labor before I go in.
When I was in labor with Kate I had pre-labor contractions the day before that were just like this. Then I went to bed and my water broke and she was born a few hours later!
So here's hoping that this is it! I'm keeping my fingers crossed but not going to cry if it all peters out either!
So wish me luck!
Secondly I got my Tubal paperwork signed so if I end up with a c-section they can perform the tubal at the same time. So that is taken care of.
Thirdly, Jason wants to go snowmobiling on Saturday and since he is going to be so far away I wanted Dr. Smith to check my cervix and see if there has been any change since last week. When Dr. Rohr checked it was still closed up tight. Well I've progressed to 1 cm! Jason still gets to go snowmobiling but the good news is that my body has started the process...
According to my mom that means there are only 9 more centimeters left to go before baby is here! It's not a matter of time anymore, just dilation! I like the way she thinks!
Last week the exam hurt, it was really uncomfortable to say the least. Well, after that I didn't have any cramps or contractions, which is very common after a cervical check. This week the exam was painless and I haven't stopped contracting since. It has been 24 hours and nothing I do will get them to stop. They aren't super painful, just mildly painful. They are different than my normal contractions though. They make be think of pre-labor contractions. The difference between these and my normal ones is that these wrap around from my back. That usually means that they are real contractions and are actually doing something. They aren't like transition contractions which are the most painful thing in the world but they are still painful.
So with that news I've just been waiting for my water to break. I'm hoping that it happens soon and that I get to meet this little one! I'm only 36 weeks 4 days but if she were to come now they wouldn't stop labor. But just in case I'm waiting until I know FOR SURE that this is labor before I go in.
When I was in labor with Kate I had pre-labor contractions the day before that were just like this. Then I went to bed and my water broke and she was born a few hours later!
So here's hoping that this is it! I'm keeping my fingers crossed but not going to cry if it all peters out either!
So wish me luck!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Oh man....
Well today is the big day that I can no longer say that I'm in my 20's. I've officially hit 30. While there wasn't any big trumpets or fireworks or anything going off today it was still a big deal to wake up and realize that I'm no longer in my 20's. I remember turning 20. Life was so much easier back then. It was exciting to leave your teens behind and become and 'adult'. How foolish were we to think that a number means that we are all grown up? I mean really? You go from being a 19 year old loser to a wise 20 year old overnight? What a load of crap! I think once I turned about 23 I realized that I really didn't know anything about life and that my mom was the best source of information ever! Now that I'm 30 I've realized that I still don't know crap about life but it's time to make something of myself. I spent my 20's getting married, getting divorced, getting remarried, having 3 kids (well almost finished on the third), graduating from college and overall just learning that I have a lot left to learn!
My kids are 2 and 4 and I've learned that as long as they have a house, clothes, food and love they will be taken care of. There are days where I have no idea what I'm doing and days where I feel like I've got it all figured out. There is very little middle ground there. Some days I feel like all I've done is yell and scream because no matter what I say they do not listen. Then the next day they will play quietly with their toys, without fighting, and take naps when supposed to. How does this change anything?
I've learned that I have a parenting style that leaves my kids with the opportunity to make decisions and learn from them all the while keeping them safe and healthy. Are there days were meals don't really happen and it feels like we live off crackers, dry cereal and granola bars? Yep. Then there are days when I make scrambled eggs from breakfast, sandwiches for lunch and pot roast for dinner.
It's all about balance.
If you don't try to balance out the good and the bad you will never be happy.
My motto for life is:
Anything in the extreme is bad.
This means that if ALL your kids eat is crackers and apple juice they are going to have growth problems. Now if you balance out snack of crackers and apple juice with milk and protein for meals then you are fine. If all you do is work and don't spend time with your family because you feel that you are better serving your family by bring home a good paycheck you are only partly right. If your kids never see you then you are out of balance. Any drug addict cannot find balance. Their life is totally focused on finding drugs, where the next high is coming from. There is no balance in that life style.
So my life lesson for the day...
FIND BALANCE!
On my other note I have the BEST family in the world! My mom and hubby spoiled me for my birthday. I've been craving Mexican food for weeks now and so we went to Tortilla's Mexican Restaurant in Lindstrom, MN for dinner on Saturday night. The food was good! While we were there I got to open my birthday present from Mom first, so I pull out of the gift bag a plug in for a NOOKcolor...
Wait, why would I need a plug in for a NOOKcolor unless inside that bag was a NOOKcolor...
Low and Behold... there is it! The epitome of my dreaming for the last 6 months. I've been dreaming (literally dreaming) of a NOOKcolor for months and here it is... in my now aged hands! I practically squealed in a restaurant full of people. I was so excited!!!
Next I got to open the card from Jason and here is $100 for accessories and books! Now I get to pick out a case for my NOOKcolor. What a challenge that is. I'm literally thinking of driving an hour to go to the nearest Barnes and Noble to touch the cases. I can't seem to make up my mind looking at them online. Who would have thought that picking out a case would be so hard!
So I get home and plug it in and it turns on! I get it registered and signed on to my wifi and I get to start playing! This thing is so incredibly fun!!! Reading books on it is great. There are games like chess, crossword and sudoku. I can search the web, go on facebook and babycenter and be totally free to do whatever I want to on it.
I'm literally in seventh heaven with my NOOKcolor! It is the BEST birthday present I've ever gotten and I will cherish it for a long time to come!
So now that I have my NOOKcolor I'm hoping that the next 26 days will fly by and the next big thing in my life will happen. I'm very anxious to meet this little girl and cannot wait for the big event to happen. So keep me in your thoughts and prayers! I can use any help you can give to get this baby out of me!!!
My kids are 2 and 4 and I've learned that as long as they have a house, clothes, food and love they will be taken care of. There are days where I have no idea what I'm doing and days where I feel like I've got it all figured out. There is very little middle ground there. Some days I feel like all I've done is yell and scream because no matter what I say they do not listen. Then the next day they will play quietly with their toys, without fighting, and take naps when supposed to. How does this change anything?
I've learned that I have a parenting style that leaves my kids with the opportunity to make decisions and learn from them all the while keeping them safe and healthy. Are there days were meals don't really happen and it feels like we live off crackers, dry cereal and granola bars? Yep. Then there are days when I make scrambled eggs from breakfast, sandwiches for lunch and pot roast for dinner.
It's all about balance.
If you don't try to balance out the good and the bad you will never be happy.
My motto for life is:
Anything in the extreme is bad.
This means that if ALL your kids eat is crackers and apple juice they are going to have growth problems. Now if you balance out snack of crackers and apple juice with milk and protein for meals then you are fine. If all you do is work and don't spend time with your family because you feel that you are better serving your family by bring home a good paycheck you are only partly right. If your kids never see you then you are out of balance. Any drug addict cannot find balance. Their life is totally focused on finding drugs, where the next high is coming from. There is no balance in that life style.
So my life lesson for the day...
FIND BALANCE!
On my other note I have the BEST family in the world! My mom and hubby spoiled me for my birthday. I've been craving Mexican food for weeks now and so we went to Tortilla's Mexican Restaurant in Lindstrom, MN for dinner on Saturday night. The food was good! While we were there I got to open my birthday present from Mom first, so I pull out of the gift bag a plug in for a NOOKcolor...
Wait, why would I need a plug in for a NOOKcolor unless inside that bag was a NOOKcolor...
Low and Behold... there is it! The epitome of my dreaming for the last 6 months. I've been dreaming (literally dreaming) of a NOOKcolor for months and here it is... in my now aged hands! I practically squealed in a restaurant full of people. I was so excited!!!
Next I got to open the card from Jason and here is $100 for accessories and books! Now I get to pick out a case for my NOOKcolor. What a challenge that is. I'm literally thinking of driving an hour to go to the nearest Barnes and Noble to touch the cases. I can't seem to make up my mind looking at them online. Who would have thought that picking out a case would be so hard!
So I get home and plug it in and it turns on! I get it registered and signed on to my wifi and I get to start playing! This thing is so incredibly fun!!! Reading books on it is great. There are games like chess, crossword and sudoku. I can search the web, go on facebook and babycenter and be totally free to do whatever I want to on it.
I'm literally in seventh heaven with my NOOKcolor! It is the BEST birthday present I've ever gotten and I will cherish it for a long time to come!
So now that I have my NOOKcolor I'm hoping that the next 26 days will fly by and the next big thing in my life will happen. I'm very anxious to meet this little girl and cannot wait for the big event to happen. So keep me in your thoughts and prayers! I can use any help you can give to get this baby out of me!!!
Friday, January 21, 2011
29 days, I can do 29 days.... right????? Ummmm.......
I met with the cardiologist today and he was great. He asked me a ton of questions and did and exam and everything. The results of the holter monitor were in and apparently though my heart races it's healthy. This is good news! He sent me to get some blood work to make sure I'm not having thyroid issues or am anemic and I have an ultrasound on Tuesday just to double check my heart can handle labor but otherwise I'm apparently just sensitive to a racing heart.
So the good news is that there is no damage being done to me or that baby, bad news is that I'm still pregnant! My OB is out of town this next week so I meet with another doc to do my weekly check and I'll find out if my Group B Strep test is positive or negative. I'm assuming that I wont know anything about being able to induce early until the following week. I'm thinking that the sub doc will not want to schedule an induction since she's not my normal doc. So I have to wait 10 more days to talk to my doc.
Because I'm pregnant I can't increase my meds because they will lower my blood pressure and then the baby wont get the nutrients and oxygen that it needs. So I literally get to suffer until delivery. That is why I will be talking to my doc about inducing early. I can't handle the racing heart everyday for the next month! It sucks!
So anyway, I figure I have at most 29 days left until this baby is born according to my due date. Abby was a week early and Kate was 9 days early so if I average them out to 8 days then I hopefully only have 21 days left. Not that long when you think about it but it seems like FOREVER!!! So in 10 days I will talk to my doc about inducing and see where we are at!
I want to say that I am married to the most amazing man in the world. He truly loves me and worries about my health more than I do. We make beautiful, amazing, adorable children. He supports us, and is responsible. He takes out the garbage every week, shovels all the snow, mows the grass and everything else that needs to be taken care of. He has done all of the vacuuming since I can no longer move like that. He knows what I have to go through to carry our children to term and is seriously concerned when anything starts to go differently. He just amazes me some days and I figured you all need to know that there are good guys out there, sometimes you just have to dig for them!
I think I'm going to go make a paper chain to count down the days... nope, not going to do that either. Going to sit on my ass here on the couch and watch TV and surf the web. Babycenter group boards are kind of boring today so I'll find something to occupy day #29...
So the good news is that there is no damage being done to me or that baby, bad news is that I'm still pregnant! My OB is out of town this next week so I meet with another doc to do my weekly check and I'll find out if my Group B Strep test is positive or negative. I'm assuming that I wont know anything about being able to induce early until the following week. I'm thinking that the sub doc will not want to schedule an induction since she's not my normal doc. So I have to wait 10 more days to talk to my doc.
Because I'm pregnant I can't increase my meds because they will lower my blood pressure and then the baby wont get the nutrients and oxygen that it needs. So I literally get to suffer until delivery. That is why I will be talking to my doc about inducing early. I can't handle the racing heart everyday for the next month! It sucks!
So anyway, I figure I have at most 29 days left until this baby is born according to my due date. Abby was a week early and Kate was 9 days early so if I average them out to 8 days then I hopefully only have 21 days left. Not that long when you think about it but it seems like FOREVER!!! So in 10 days I will talk to my doc about inducing and see where we are at!
I want to say that I am married to the most amazing man in the world. He truly loves me and worries about my health more than I do. We make beautiful, amazing, adorable children. He supports us, and is responsible. He takes out the garbage every week, shovels all the snow, mows the grass and everything else that needs to be taken care of. He has done all of the vacuuming since I can no longer move like that. He knows what I have to go through to carry our children to term and is seriously concerned when anything starts to go differently. He just amazes me some days and I figured you all need to know that there are good guys out there, sometimes you just have to dig for them!
I think I'm going to go make a paper chain to count down the days... nope, not going to do that either. Going to sit on my ass here on the couch and watch TV and surf the web. Babycenter group boards are kind of boring today so I'll find something to occupy day #29...
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Don't let life get you down!
Well, I'm still dealing with my heart acting up. I'm not sure what it is. My OB doc says it's not damaging my heart and the baby is fine. Well I don't feel fine! I feel like I've just run a marathon without getting off my couch! It's exhausting and I'm ready to be done with this pregnancy to see if this stuff continues on it's own or not. I see the cardiologist tomorrow morning and I'm hoping that Regions gets the report from my holter monitor back to her in time for my appointment. I'm going to ask her to track it down if she doesn't have it on the top of my file when she walks into the room. So I'm hoping for good news tomorrow. Good news would be this:
1. There is no lasting damage done to your heart, it is simply the strain of being pregnant and you will be 100% fine.
2. In order for your heart to stop being stressed you need to deliver this baby sooner rather than later. YaY!
3. In the 6 weeks after you give birth you should have no episodes and will not have to continue to take the heart medication.
Ok, so that probably isn't going to happen, at least #2 probably wont. I'm preparing for another 4 weeks and 2 days of being pregnant. I want my baby to be healthy but I also don't want to have a heart condition for the rest of my life either! It's pretty hard to decide which is worse! Deliver baby early or have a lasting condition that will forever affect how I can live my life? I'm hoping that the cardiologist will be able to answer some of these questions for me tomorrow.
For those of you that haven't been talking to me recently this is what I feel when I have an episode:
1. My heart beat increases
2. I start to breathe faster
3. My chest gets tight
4. I get light-headed which leads into full on dizziness if I don't get control quick enough
5. My ears stop working. I can barely hear anything because of the lack of blood pumping through my body and to my brain.
6. I get shaky
7. I get nauseous
8. I am exhausted.
These happen at almost every episode, but not always in that order. These episodes last anywhere from 15 minutes to 4 hours. Try taking care of your children when you can't hear what they are saying to you. Rather difficult my friend. I've had this with the other two pregnancies as well but the heart medication has always kept it under control with very few break-through episodes happening. Well this time none of the 3 different heart meds that I've been on this week have done anything to keep it under control.
So I'm hoping that the cardiologist has the magic answer tomorrow and everything will be perfect!
On a side note:
I'm turning the big 3-0 on Monday. What! No way you say! You can't possibly be that old. Well, my friends, that is exactly how old I'm going to be.
I've started thinking about which face creams I will have to apply daily so that this ancient face doesn't fall right off my bones. Did you know there are like millions of them out there? How in the world do you chose? How do you know what you need to look for? Alpha-hydroxy, green tea extracts... blah blah blah.... It's the most confusing decision I think I've had to ponder in a long long time. Which college to go to was easier than this! It's crazy and makes my head spin! So with crazy pregnancy hormones I'm supposed to decide which magical cream is going to keep me from looking like the crypt keeper in five years? Ha! Not going to happen my dear friend, not going to happen! I think I'm going to take my chances and wait until my face actually starts to shrivel up, then I will get serious!
Another side note:
I really want an e-reader! I keep hoping that my wonderful husband will surprise me with one for my birthday but I don't think that we can afford one right now and while I totally understand it still sucks! I really want the NOOKcolor but I can't figure out how to come up with $249 for a machine to read books that I can get from the library for free? Did you know that there are like millions and millions of ebooks out there fore free? Or even as little as $.99?!!?!?! Talk about crazy!
I was talking with my mom the other day about how much the revolution of ebooks is going to save the planet. Can you imagine how many trees are going to be saved because they don't need paper to make a book? Think about the manufacturing pollution that will not be needed anymore because instead of a factory making books it will be a group of people sitting in an office, working on their computer, to publish these books. I'm sure that the editing cost will go up because someone is going to have to sit there and make sure that they are in the right format for publishing electronically and such. However there will be a loss of job in those factories for the people who are standing there working the machines that create books. The great thing is that even though there will be less books made there will still be books made! Not everyone can afford an e-reader and as such they will still be purchasing regular old books!
I started out thinking I would never want an electronic form to hold all of my books. Then I realized that there are so many more books available to me in the virtual world that my library will never be able to accommodate my reading habit to the fullest. So I've decided that an e-reader would be amazing and that I will gladly take one from any method I can secure one from!
So for all of you out there that have a ereader that is simply collecting dust on a shelf. Please email me and I will forward you may address so that you may send me my birthday present. If you don't happen to have a spare one lying around then you can send donations to me for the purchase of a new one. Rest assured that it will be well loved and taken care of. At least you aren't making donations for some bimbo to get a boob jog. This will continue to educate me and I will be a better person for it. Not simply a bigger breasted one...
1. There is no lasting damage done to your heart, it is simply the strain of being pregnant and you will be 100% fine.
2. In order for your heart to stop being stressed you need to deliver this baby sooner rather than later. YaY!
3. In the 6 weeks after you give birth you should have no episodes and will not have to continue to take the heart medication.
Ok, so that probably isn't going to happen, at least #2 probably wont. I'm preparing for another 4 weeks and 2 days of being pregnant. I want my baby to be healthy but I also don't want to have a heart condition for the rest of my life either! It's pretty hard to decide which is worse! Deliver baby early or have a lasting condition that will forever affect how I can live my life? I'm hoping that the cardiologist will be able to answer some of these questions for me tomorrow.
For those of you that haven't been talking to me recently this is what I feel when I have an episode:
1. My heart beat increases
2. I start to breathe faster
3. My chest gets tight
4. I get light-headed which leads into full on dizziness if I don't get control quick enough
5. My ears stop working. I can barely hear anything because of the lack of blood pumping through my body and to my brain.
6. I get shaky
7. I get nauseous
8. I am exhausted.
These happen at almost every episode, but not always in that order. These episodes last anywhere from 15 minutes to 4 hours. Try taking care of your children when you can't hear what they are saying to you. Rather difficult my friend. I've had this with the other two pregnancies as well but the heart medication has always kept it under control with very few break-through episodes happening. Well this time none of the 3 different heart meds that I've been on this week have done anything to keep it under control.
So I'm hoping that the cardiologist has the magic answer tomorrow and everything will be perfect!
On a side note:
I'm turning the big 3-0 on Monday. What! No way you say! You can't possibly be that old. Well, my friends, that is exactly how old I'm going to be.
I've started thinking about which face creams I will have to apply daily so that this ancient face doesn't fall right off my bones. Did you know there are like millions of them out there? How in the world do you chose? How do you know what you need to look for? Alpha-hydroxy, green tea extracts... blah blah blah.... It's the most confusing decision I think I've had to ponder in a long long time. Which college to go to was easier than this! It's crazy and makes my head spin! So with crazy pregnancy hormones I'm supposed to decide which magical cream is going to keep me from looking like the crypt keeper in five years? Ha! Not going to happen my dear friend, not going to happen! I think I'm going to take my chances and wait until my face actually starts to shrivel up, then I will get serious!
Another side note:
I really want an e-reader! I keep hoping that my wonderful husband will surprise me with one for my birthday but I don't think that we can afford one right now and while I totally understand it still sucks! I really want the NOOKcolor but I can't figure out how to come up with $249 for a machine to read books that I can get from the library for free? Did you know that there are like millions and millions of ebooks out there fore free? Or even as little as $.99?!!?!?! Talk about crazy!
I was talking with my mom the other day about how much the revolution of ebooks is going to save the planet. Can you imagine how many trees are going to be saved because they don't need paper to make a book? Think about the manufacturing pollution that will not be needed anymore because instead of a factory making books it will be a group of people sitting in an office, working on their computer, to publish these books. I'm sure that the editing cost will go up because someone is going to have to sit there and make sure that they are in the right format for publishing electronically and such. However there will be a loss of job in those factories for the people who are standing there working the machines that create books. The great thing is that even though there will be less books made there will still be books made! Not everyone can afford an e-reader and as such they will still be purchasing regular old books!
I started out thinking I would never want an electronic form to hold all of my books. Then I realized that there are so many more books available to me in the virtual world that my library will never be able to accommodate my reading habit to the fullest. So I've decided that an e-reader would be amazing and that I will gladly take one from any method I can secure one from!
So for all of you out there that have a ereader that is simply collecting dust on a shelf. Please email me and I will forward you may address so that you may send me my birthday present. If you don't happen to have a spare one lying around then you can send donations to me for the purchase of a new one. Rest assured that it will be well loved and taken care of. At least you aren't making donations for some bimbo to get a boob jog. This will continue to educate me and I will be a better person for it. Not simply a bigger breasted one...
Friday, January 14, 2011
Holy Heart Batman!
So we all know that I'm pregnant... and now you get to listen to my latest worry/complaint. Well I'm 35 weeks tomorrow. I've suffered from Hyperemesis and Tachycardia in addition to the normal pregnancy complaints. So I feel like a whale, my back hurts, but vagina is being ripped from my body, heartburn, mild water retention, just to name a few.
For the last few weeks my heart hasn't been cooperating with me. I've been on medication to keep it under control since about 10-12 weeks and it has worked with all three of my pregnancies so far until delivery. Once baby is out everything goes away. I stop hurting, my heart stops racing, I stop wanting to throw up every second...
For the last month the medication for my heart hasn't been working that well. So I talk to my doc and she says lets increase your meds and see if that helps. Well for a few days nothing, no improvement. Then for a few days the episodes are a little better... I think YAY!!! It's going to work! Then yesterday hits. I have the WORST episode that I've ever had since going on medication with my first pregnancy. So I finally get home and call my doc and leave her a message. She calls me back later that night and says that if it happens again or doesn't get better then she wants me to go in and get checked out. She's talking about hooking me up to a Halter (sp?) monitor again to see what my heart is doing.
So I wake up today and my heart is still working too hard. I talk to Jason and he says just call and make an appointment. So I get an appointment with another doctor who is familiar with my 'issues' for later this afternoon. All the while I'm sitting here feeling like I'm running a marathon without leaving my couch.
Here's my issue. This heart thing FREAKS me out!!! How do I know that it isn't creating damage that I will deal with for the rest of my life? Is it safe for the baby at this point? How do we know? I'm 35 weeks, 36 is considered full term. Why can't we just deliver the baby so that everybody is safe? I'm willing to wait until she decides to come on her own if it's safe for everyone. I'm freaking out that I'm going to have a heart attack or something. I have a friend who had some heart problems while she was pregnant and they found out that her heart was only working at 25%!!!
Why do we have to go through all these tests when we are so close to the end? I know I want to meet my little girl and I want her to be healthy and safe but jeez, this is crazy! This is my last pregnancy, I plan to get my tubes tied after this is all over with too. I can't deal with this again and so I will be giving up on my dream of having a son. My pregnancy is THAT bad. I will refuse to have anymore children because my body and mind can't handle being pregnant, so why can't we just be done with it already!
So I know this is basically a bitch blog post but I don't know who else will listen to me. Jason understands because he deals with it everyday. My Mom understands because she worries about me. Things that are messing with your heart just aren't to be taken lightly. So what do you think that the doc is going to say this afternoon? More than likely there will be little done, I might be put on the monitor for a few days but I will be told to wait until I go into labor and then everything will be alright. How do I impress on her the stress and worry that this is causing? It's so frustrating. I know there is something wrong but I don't know how to express my concern.
Well, keep your fingers crossed that the appointment goes well and that I get some answers that are satisfactory!!!
Thanks for listening to me complain and vent my worries. Cyber-space is the perfect place for this type of stuff!
For the last few weeks my heart hasn't been cooperating with me. I've been on medication to keep it under control since about 10-12 weeks and it has worked with all three of my pregnancies so far until delivery. Once baby is out everything goes away. I stop hurting, my heart stops racing, I stop wanting to throw up every second...
For the last month the medication for my heart hasn't been working that well. So I talk to my doc and she says lets increase your meds and see if that helps. Well for a few days nothing, no improvement. Then for a few days the episodes are a little better... I think YAY!!! It's going to work! Then yesterday hits. I have the WORST episode that I've ever had since going on medication with my first pregnancy. So I finally get home and call my doc and leave her a message. She calls me back later that night and says that if it happens again or doesn't get better then she wants me to go in and get checked out. She's talking about hooking me up to a Halter (sp?) monitor again to see what my heart is doing.
So I wake up today and my heart is still working too hard. I talk to Jason and he says just call and make an appointment. So I get an appointment with another doctor who is familiar with my 'issues' for later this afternoon. All the while I'm sitting here feeling like I'm running a marathon without leaving my couch.
Here's my issue. This heart thing FREAKS me out!!! How do I know that it isn't creating damage that I will deal with for the rest of my life? Is it safe for the baby at this point? How do we know? I'm 35 weeks, 36 is considered full term. Why can't we just deliver the baby so that everybody is safe? I'm willing to wait until she decides to come on her own if it's safe for everyone. I'm freaking out that I'm going to have a heart attack or something. I have a friend who had some heart problems while she was pregnant and they found out that her heart was only working at 25%!!!
Why do we have to go through all these tests when we are so close to the end? I know I want to meet my little girl and I want her to be healthy and safe but jeez, this is crazy! This is my last pregnancy, I plan to get my tubes tied after this is all over with too. I can't deal with this again and so I will be giving up on my dream of having a son. My pregnancy is THAT bad. I will refuse to have anymore children because my body and mind can't handle being pregnant, so why can't we just be done with it already!
So I know this is basically a bitch blog post but I don't know who else will listen to me. Jason understands because he deals with it everyday. My Mom understands because she worries about me. Things that are messing with your heart just aren't to be taken lightly. So what do you think that the doc is going to say this afternoon? More than likely there will be little done, I might be put on the monitor for a few days but I will be told to wait until I go into labor and then everything will be alright. How do I impress on her the stress and worry that this is causing? It's so frustrating. I know there is something wrong but I don't know how to express my concern.
Well, keep your fingers crossed that the appointment goes well and that I get some answers that are satisfactory!!!
Thanks for listening to me complain and vent my worries. Cyber-space is the perfect place for this type of stuff!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Most Expensive Bananas Ever!
I haven't blogged in awhile just cause I haven't had anything really to say. Christmas was good, the week after was busy. I feel like I'm just waiting on this baby to come now and it's going to take forever. I'm due February 19th, 2011 and that leaves me with exactly 43 days until then. I realize that not all babies come on their due date (in fact I think it's only like 5%) and I've yet to make it to my due date with the other two girls. Abby was 7 days early and Kate was 9 days early. So if I average them I should have this baby by the 11th at the latest.
Wishful thinking I know. Between now and then I'm going to be turning 30 and because I'm preggo I wont even be able to drown my sorrows. Did you realize that every face cream, anti-aging cream and wrinkle cream commercial talks about women over the age of 30 should be using these creams. 30?!?!?!?!?! Really, since when is that old? Like once I hit the magical big 3-0 my face is going to fall into my neck? While when I look at my hands and they do look older than when I was 20 I imagine that they should. After all in the last 10 years I was married, divorced, remarried and am having my third child. A lot has happened in the last decade and so I should look wiser for the life I've led. Not everything has been easy and so I should look like life has happened. How do you pick and choose which creams you need?
I don't have wrinkles, gray hair or dry skin. I'm hoping to lose the baby weight quickly and maybe I'll have some wrinkles after that but I don't think stretch marks on my belly are considered wrinkle and Oil of Olay isn't going to fix those.
Talking to my mom yesterday I told her about the creams age limit and she just laughed. She is 52 and a young 52 at that. She just said at least you don't have to take senior vitamins. Apparently society has deemed 30 and 50 as the age markers for women. Once you are 50 your body need different vitamins and the retards call them the senior or silver vitamins. My mom is the farthest thing from a senior citizen and it sucks that because of a number she has to buy vitamins with this label on them. What is society doing to our self worth?
My mom is awesome. She knows that we are broke with it being winter and so yesterday we went shopping for the new baby. I went through my clothes for this new little one and she doesn't have any, I mean NO newborn clothes. I found one lightweight sleeper and a t-shirt. So I decided that since I had some extra money I would go shopping to try to get some sleepers and the misc. crap that I need for her. So we went to the outlet mall and shopped at Carter's and got some really cute sleepers and outfits for her to wear that will be warm. Well, Mom wouldn't let me pay for them. So I figured that was OK. We then went to Target so I could buy her some diapers, new nipples for the bottles, Evening Primrose Oil, breast pads and other such misc items. Well, Mom added Bananas to the cart. Then proceeded to cut me off in the check out line and pay for those as well. Once we got home she walks away with bananas and I walk away with 4 bags worth of clothes and such for my children. Those were the most expensive bananas I've ever seen.
My mom is the best. She is not only my best friend and I can talk to her about anything, she takes care of me, loves my children, doesn't tell me how to raise my children, and over all is one of the most amazing people that I have ever met. I only can hope that there are other people out there who are lucky enough to have a mother like I do. I can only aspire to be a mother like her someday.
Thank you for being my mom, Mom!!!
Wishful thinking I know. Between now and then I'm going to be turning 30 and because I'm preggo I wont even be able to drown my sorrows. Did you realize that every face cream, anti-aging cream and wrinkle cream commercial talks about women over the age of 30 should be using these creams. 30?!?!?!?!?! Really, since when is that old? Like once I hit the magical big 3-0 my face is going to fall into my neck? While when I look at my hands and they do look older than when I was 20 I imagine that they should. After all in the last 10 years I was married, divorced, remarried and am having my third child. A lot has happened in the last decade and so I should look wiser for the life I've led. Not everything has been easy and so I should look like life has happened. How do you pick and choose which creams you need?
I don't have wrinkles, gray hair or dry skin. I'm hoping to lose the baby weight quickly and maybe I'll have some wrinkles after that but I don't think stretch marks on my belly are considered wrinkle and Oil of Olay isn't going to fix those.
Talking to my mom yesterday I told her about the creams age limit and she just laughed. She is 52 and a young 52 at that. She just said at least you don't have to take senior vitamins. Apparently society has deemed 30 and 50 as the age markers for women. Once you are 50 your body need different vitamins and the retards call them the senior or silver vitamins. My mom is the farthest thing from a senior citizen and it sucks that because of a number she has to buy vitamins with this label on them. What is society doing to our self worth?
My mom is awesome. She knows that we are broke with it being winter and so yesterday we went shopping for the new baby. I went through my clothes for this new little one and she doesn't have any, I mean NO newborn clothes. I found one lightweight sleeper and a t-shirt. So I decided that since I had some extra money I would go shopping to try to get some sleepers and the misc. crap that I need for her. So we went to the outlet mall and shopped at Carter's and got some really cute sleepers and outfits for her to wear that will be warm. Well, Mom wouldn't let me pay for them. So I figured that was OK. We then went to Target so I could buy her some diapers, new nipples for the bottles, Evening Primrose Oil, breast pads and other such misc items. Well, Mom added Bananas to the cart. Then proceeded to cut me off in the check out line and pay for those as well. Once we got home she walks away with bananas and I walk away with 4 bags worth of clothes and such for my children. Those were the most expensive bananas I've ever seen.
My mom is the best. She is not only my best friend and I can talk to her about anything, she takes care of me, loves my children, doesn't tell me how to raise my children, and over all is one of the most amazing people that I have ever met. I only can hope that there are other people out there who are lucky enough to have a mother like I do. I can only aspire to be a mother like her someday.
Thank you for being my mom, Mom!!!
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