Friday, January 21, 2011

29 days, I can do 29 days.... right????? Ummmm.......

I met with the cardiologist today and he was great.  He asked me a ton of questions and did and exam and everything.  The results of the holter monitor were in and apparently though my heart races it's healthy.  This is good news!  He sent me to get some blood work to make sure I'm not having thyroid issues or am anemic and I have an ultrasound on Tuesday just to double check my heart can handle labor but otherwise I'm apparently just sensitive to a racing heart. 

So the good news is that there is no damage being done to me or that baby, bad news is that I'm still pregnant!  My OB is out of town this next week so I meet with another doc to do my weekly check and I'll find out if my Group B Strep test is positive or negative.  I'm assuming that I wont know anything about being able to induce early until the following week.  I'm thinking that the sub doc will not want to schedule an induction since she's not my normal doc.  So I have to wait 10 more days to talk to my doc. 

Because I'm pregnant I can't increase my meds because they will lower my blood pressure and then the baby wont get the nutrients and oxygen that it needs.  So I literally get to suffer until delivery.  That is why I will be talking to my doc about inducing early.  I can't handle the racing heart everyday for the next month!  It sucks!

So anyway, I figure I have at most 29 days left until this baby is born according to my due date.  Abby was a week early and Kate was 9 days early so if I average them out to 8 days then I hopefully only have 21 days left.  Not that long when you think about it but it seems like FOREVER!!!  So in 10 days I will talk to my doc about inducing and see where we are at!

I want to say that I am married to the most amazing man in the world.  He truly loves me and worries about my health more than I do.  We make beautiful, amazing, adorable children.  He supports us, and is responsible.  He takes out the garbage every week, shovels all the snow, mows the grass and everything else that needs to be taken care of.  He has done all of the vacuuming since I can no longer move like that.  He knows what I have to go through to carry our children to term and is seriously concerned when anything starts to go differently.  He just amazes me some days and I figured you all need to know that there are good guys out there, sometimes you just have to dig for them!

I think I'm going to go make a paper chain to count down the days... nope, not going to do that either.  Going to sit on my ass here on the couch and watch TV and surf the web.  Babycenter group boards are kind of boring today so I'll find something to occupy day #29...

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Don't let life get you down!

Well, I'm still dealing with my heart acting up.  I'm not sure what it is.  My OB doc says it's not damaging my heart and the baby is fine.  Well I don't feel fine!  I feel like I've just run a marathon without getting off my couch!  It's exhausting and I'm ready to be done with this pregnancy to see if this stuff continues on it's own or not.  I see the cardiologist tomorrow morning and I'm hoping that Regions gets the report from my holter monitor back to her in time for my appointment.  I'm going to ask her to track it down if she doesn't have it on the top of my file when she walks into the room.  So I'm hoping for good news tomorrow.  Good news would be this:
1.  There is no lasting damage done to your heart, it is simply the strain of being pregnant and you will be 100% fine.
2.  In order for your heart to stop being stressed you need to deliver this baby sooner rather than later.  YaY!
3.  In the 6 weeks after you give birth you should have no episodes and will not have to continue to take the heart medication.

Ok, so that probably isn't going to happen, at least #2 probably wont. I'm preparing for another 4 weeks and 2 days of being pregnant.  I want my baby to be healthy but I also don't want to have a heart condition for the rest of my life either!  It's pretty hard to decide which is worse!  Deliver baby early or have a lasting condition that will forever affect how I can live my life?  I'm hoping that the cardiologist will be able to answer some of these questions for me tomorrow.

For those of you that haven't been talking to me recently this is what I feel when I have an episode:
1. My heart beat increases
2. I start to breathe faster
3. My chest gets tight
4. I get light-headed which leads into full on dizziness if I don't get control quick enough
5. My ears stop working.  I can barely hear anything because of the lack of blood pumping through my body and to my brain.
6. I get shaky
7. I get nauseous
8. I am exhausted.

These happen at almost every episode, but not always in that order.  These episodes last anywhere from 15 minutes to 4 hours.  Try taking care of your children when you can't hear what they are saying to you.  Rather difficult my friend.  I've had this with the other two pregnancies as well but the heart medication has always kept it under control with very few break-through episodes happening.  Well this time none of the 3 different heart meds that I've been on this week have done anything to keep it under control. 

So I'm hoping that the cardiologist has the magic answer tomorrow and everything will be perfect!

On a side note: 

I'm turning the big 3-0 on Monday.  What!  No way you say!  You can't possibly be that old.  Well, my friends, that is exactly how old I'm going to be. 

I've started thinking about which face creams I will have to apply daily so that this ancient face doesn't fall right off my bones.  Did you know there are like millions of them out there?  How in the world do you chose?  How do you know what you need to look for?  Alpha-hydroxy, green tea extracts...  blah blah blah....  It's the most confusing decision I think I've had to ponder in a long long time.  Which college to go to was easier than this!  It's crazy and makes my head spin!  So with crazy pregnancy hormones I'm supposed to decide which magical cream is going to keep me from looking like the crypt keeper in five years?  Ha!  Not going to happen my dear friend, not going to happen!  I think I'm going to take my chances and wait until my face actually starts to shrivel up, then I will get serious!

Another side note:

I really want an e-reader!  I keep hoping that my wonderful husband will surprise me with one for my birthday but I don't think that we can afford one right now and while I totally understand it still sucks!  I really want the NOOKcolor but I can't figure out how to come up with $249 for a machine to read books that I can get from the library for free?  Did you know that there are like millions and millions of ebooks out there fore free?  Or even as little as $.99?!!?!?!  Talk about crazy! 

NOOKcolor screen

I was talking with my mom the other day about how much the revolution of ebooks is going to save the planet.  Can you imagine how many trees are going to be saved because they don't need paper to make a book?  Think about the manufacturing pollution that will not be needed anymore because instead of a factory making books it will be a group of people sitting in an office, working on their computer, to publish these books.  I'm sure that the editing cost will go up because someone is going to have to sit there and make sure that they are in the right format for publishing electronically and such.  However there will be a loss of job in those factories for the people who are standing there working the machines that create books.  The great thing is that even though there will be less books made there will still be books made! Not everyone can afford an e-reader and as such they will still be purchasing regular old books! 

I started out thinking I would never want an electronic form to hold all of my books.  Then I realized that there are so many more books available to me in the virtual world that my library will never be able to accommodate my reading habit to the fullest.  So I've decided that an e-reader would be amazing and that I will gladly take one from any method I can secure one from! 

So for all of you out there that have a ereader that is simply collecting dust on a shelf.  Please email me and I will forward you may address so that you may send me my birthday present.  If you don't happen to have a spare one lying around then you can send donations to me for the purchase of a new one.  Rest assured that it will be well loved and taken care of.  At least you aren't making donations for some bimbo to get a boob jog.  This will continue to educate me and I will be a better person for it.  Not simply a bigger breasted one...

Friday, January 14, 2011

Holy Heart Batman!

So we all know that I'm pregnant... and now you get to listen to my latest worry/complaint.  Well I'm 35 weeks tomorrow.  I've suffered from Hyperemesis and Tachycardia in addition to the normal pregnancy complaints.  So I feel like a whale, my back hurts, but vagina is being ripped from my body, heartburn, mild water retention, just to name a few. 

For the last few weeks my heart hasn't been cooperating with me.  I've been on medication to keep it under control since about 10-12 weeks and it has worked with all three of my pregnancies so far until delivery.  Once baby is out everything goes away.  I stop hurting, my heart stops racing, I stop wanting to throw up every second...

For the last month the medication for my heart hasn't been working that well.  So I talk to my doc and she says lets increase your meds and see if that helps.  Well for a few days nothing, no improvement.  Then for a few days the episodes are a little better...  I think YAY!!!  It's going to work!  Then yesterday hits.  I have the WORST episode that I've ever had since going on medication with my first pregnancy.  So I finally get home and call my doc and leave her a message.  She calls me back later that night and says that if it happens again or doesn't get better then she wants me to go in and get checked out.  She's talking about hooking me up to a Halter (sp?) monitor again to see what my heart is doing. 

So I wake up today and my heart is still working too hard.  I talk to Jason and he says just call and make an appointment.  So I get an appointment with another doctor who is familiar with my 'issues' for later this afternoon.  All the while I'm sitting here feeling like I'm running a marathon without leaving my couch.

Here's my issue.  This heart thing FREAKS me out!!!  How do I know that it isn't creating damage that I will deal with for the rest of my life?  Is it safe for the baby at this point?  How do we know?  I'm 35 weeks, 36 is considered full term.  Why can't we just deliver the baby so that everybody is safe?  I'm willing to wait until she decides to come on her own if it's safe for everyone.  I'm freaking out that I'm going to have a heart attack or something.  I have a friend who had some heart problems while she was pregnant and they found out that her heart was only working at 25%!!! 

Why do we have to go through all these tests when we are so close to the end?  I know I want to meet my little girl and I want her to be healthy and safe but jeez, this is crazy!  This is my last pregnancy, I plan to get my tubes tied after this is all over with too.  I can't deal with this again and so I will be giving up on my dream of having a son.  My pregnancy is THAT bad.  I will refuse to have anymore children because my body and mind can't handle being pregnant, so why can't we just be done with it already!

So I know this is basically a bitch blog post but I don't know who else will listen to me.  Jason understands because he deals with it everyday.  My Mom understands because she worries about me.  Things that are messing with your heart just aren't to be taken lightly.  So what do you think that the doc is going to say this afternoon?  More than likely there will be little done, I might be put on the monitor for a few days but I will be told to wait until I go into labor and then everything will be alright.  How do I impress on her the stress and worry that this is causing?  It's so frustrating.  I know there is something wrong but I don't know how to express my concern. 

Well, keep your fingers crossed that the appointment goes well and that I get some answers that are satisfactory!!!

Thanks for listening to me complain and vent my worries.  Cyber-space is the perfect place for this type of stuff!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Most Expensive Bananas Ever!

I haven't blogged in awhile just cause I haven't had anything really to say.  Christmas was good, the week after was busy.  I feel like I'm just waiting on this baby to come now and it's going to take forever.  I'm due February 19th, 2011 and that leaves me with exactly 43 days until then.  I realize that not all babies come on their due date (in fact I think it's only like 5%) and I've yet to make it to my due date with the other two girls.  Abby was 7 days early and Kate was 9 days early.  So if I average them I should have this baby by the 11th at the latest.

Wishful thinking I know.  Between now and then I'm going to be turning 30 and because I'm preggo I wont even be able to drown my sorrows.  Did you realize that every face cream, anti-aging cream and wrinkle cream commercial talks about women over the age of 30 should be using these creams.  30?!?!?!?!?!  Really, since when is that old?  Like once I hit the magical big 3-0 my face is going to fall into my neck?  While when I look at my hands and they do look older than when I was 20 I imagine that they should.  After all in the last 10 years I was married, divorced, remarried and am having my third child.  A lot has happened in the last decade and so I should look wiser for the life I've led.  Not everything has been easy and so I should look like life has happened.  How do you pick and choose which creams you need?

I don't have wrinkles, gray hair or dry skin.  I'm hoping to lose the baby weight quickly and maybe I'll have some wrinkles after that but I don't think stretch marks on my belly are considered wrinkle and Oil of Olay isn't going to fix those.

Talking to my mom yesterday I told her about the creams age limit and she just laughed.  She is 52 and a young 52 at that.  She just said at least you don't have to take senior vitamins.  Apparently society has deemed 30 and 50 as the age markers for women.  Once you are 50 your body need different vitamins and the retards call them the senior or silver vitamins.  My mom is the farthest thing from a senior citizen and it sucks that because of a number she has to buy vitamins with this label on them.  What is society doing to our self worth?

My mom is awesome.  She knows that we are broke with it being winter and so yesterday we went shopping for the new baby.  I went through my clothes for this new little one and she doesn't have any, I mean NO newborn clothes.  I found one lightweight sleeper and  a t-shirt.  So I decided that since I had some extra money I would go shopping to try to get some sleepers and the misc. crap that I need for her.  So we went to the outlet mall and shopped at Carter's and got some really cute sleepers and outfits for her to wear that will be warm.  Well, Mom wouldn't let me pay for them.  So I figured that was OK.  We then went to Target so I could buy her some diapers, new nipples for the bottles, Evening Primrose Oil, breast pads and other such misc items.  Well, Mom added Bananas to the cart.  Then proceeded to cut me off in the check out line and pay for those as well.  Once we got home she walks away with bananas and I walk away with 4 bags worth of clothes and such for my children.  Those were the most expensive bananas I've ever seen. 

My mom is the best.  She is not only my best friend and I can talk to her about anything, she takes care of me, loves my children, doesn't tell me how to raise my children, and over all is one of the most amazing people that I have ever met.  I only can hope that there are other people out there who are lucky enough to have a mother like I do.  I can only aspire to be a mother like her someday. 

Thank you for being my mom, Mom!!!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Breastfeeding....

Ok, here's my soap box for the day...  Thanks Candice for getting me started and then thanks to Babycenters February 2011 group...

In regards to breastfeeding hurting for a few weeks in the beginning...

It will hurt for a couple weeks until your nipples become accustom to nursing but it shouldn't be the 'make you cry' type of pain. 
It isn't usually easy for most BF moms at first.  I think that it is something that needs to be practiced and after a few weeks it will get better. 

Think of it this way...  you are pregnant for 40 weeks, in the beginning most of us are puking our guts out for weeks, if not months.  Then the second tri hits and we level out and start to show and are all a glow, ok maybe your constipated or uncomfortable.  Then the third tri hits and we are nothing but complaining about sore backs, hoo ha's, feeling fat, bloated, hungry, crabby.  All in all most of us complain for the last 12 weeks like it's never going to end.

Then we go into labor and if we are lucky it only lasts a few hours, there's a very short amount of pushing and the baby is there without any tearing or major medical intervention. 

What about this entire process says that breastfeeding should all of a sudden be easy???  Nothing else has come easy so why should this?  I feel like every one should be trying their hardest to give their baby the breast milk that is superior to formula.  Do we realize that as little as 100 years ago if you didn't figure it out your baby died?  You had to find a wet nurse to feed your baby if you couldn't figure it out.  Formula is a fairly new thing and we should be trying our hardest to give our babies the very best!!!  Obviously you can tell I'm all for the boob but for real, give it your all!  You didn't give up on being pregnant when you could only eat saltines and ginger ale for 6 weeks.  Why should this be any different?

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Just wrote a new post and deleted it.

Your not getting me to type it again...

Pregnancy hormones decree that you'll just have to live with the cliff notes:

*Wrapping presents on the floor means I will be stuck there until after Christmas or when this baby decides to be born.

*Snow Storm means some people still aren't plowed out (5 days later) and I'm sick of hearing them complain about it.  Go grab a shovel you lazy ass people.

*T-minus 66 days until due date.  Still no name.  This child will name herself in 3 years and it will be Princess Purple Pink.  maybe I should just name her that now...  nope. not going to do it!

*I hate all the girl names out there.  I only planned to have 2 girls and I used the 2 names that I liked so this one needs to be a boy.  I have tons of names that I like for a boy.  Sorry sweetheart, you are getting a boy name...

*I think I'm going to make a paper circle chain for the last 66 days... Abby will love to rip one off each day.  Maybe I should make Jason put a name on each of the paper rings for me to hate everyday...  now there's an idea. 

*I need to make Truffles and I don't want to...

*Good bye, hope you enjoyed the cliff notes...

Monday, December 6, 2010

Random Stuff...

Had a busy busy weekend that was really good.  Got to see my brother and spend tie with his son, Jordan.  Great times had by all. 

I think I'm going to try to finish Christmas Shopping this week.  Not sure if that will actually get done or not but that is my goal.  I also need to go grocery shopping and get working on making a few hats for Christmas presents.  I'm hoping that the hats wont take very long to crochet but I haven't had the energy to start working on them either. 

I'm loving the Christmas music and shows on right now.  I figure that Christmas is a short time of the year and as of the 26th then you don't have to deal with any of it any more.  Soak it up while you can!!!

Abby got her music program for church yesterday.  They are signing 4 different songs in church for the Christmas program in a couple of weeks and I get to teach her the songs.  Too bad I can't carry a tune in a bucket!!!  Oh, well.  Abby should have fun.  I guess that this is what being a parent is all about.  You get to teach them about everything that school tells you to teach them about. 

Anybody have any cures for pregnancy back pain?  I'm dying over here!  I have low back pain which is normal, but it shoots down my right leg into my thigh.  A whole boat load of fun there!  Then I've got a pain below my shoulder blade that makes sitting EXTREMELY painful!  I'm wondering if a heat pad will help that.  At least its warm in our freezing house!  Trying to save money on the heat bills means bundling up at home!

The girls and I are having a PJ day today and staying in our PJ's all day.  I figure they are warm and comfy and I don't feel like getting dressed today.  I've got running around to do tomorrow so everyone will have to go outside in the cold so we will bundle up for that!

Kate has the strangest hair, we've yet to get it cut (2 1/2 yrs old now) and it is still only about 2-3 inches long every where except a strip around the middle of her head that has grown long.  I'm going to get it cut soon but there isn't enough to cut it into something very cute.  At least I can't picture it.  So I did a Bing search for pictures and nothing came up for little girls that don't have much hair.  There's all these pictures of little girls with tons of hair getting super cute hair cuts.  Well, Kate doesn't have much hair but I'm going to get it trimmed up so that it doesn't look like she can do a comb over anymore.  Yep a comb over, like old man comb over.  She has the hair to do that, not put into ponytails or pigtails but certainly a comb over can be accomplished.  Oh, well.  I'll post pictures once I get her hair cut so you can all see what we come up with!

I hope that everyone has a great Holiday Season and enjoys all the family time!

Oh and by the way there is 75 days until my baby's due date!!!  Yep, for some reason 75 days doesn't seem like very many.  To me it's 2.5 months away and with Christmas and turning 30 between now and then there isn't much time left!  Since this is also my last pregnancy I can't wait to get to the end but it's kind of bittersweet too. 

Oh, well.  Here's to a fast 75 days!!!